My Sun

<body topmargin=0 leftmargin=0 marginheight=0 marginwidth=0> <table cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0 height="100%"><tr> <td valign="top" width=145 BGCOLOR="#3366CC" TEXT="#080000" background="0ceff483.gif"> <bR> </td> <td valign="top" BGCOLOR="#FFFFFF" TEXT="#080000" background="041ff483.gif"> <bR> <div> <IMG SRC="042f0050.gif" border=0 width="496" height="5" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> <bR> <div> <B>My “Sun”</B></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Lunarena…why do you do this?”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>What?  I spun around, my thick curls twirling all around me.  My anklets make a sweet tingling sound when I turned and the white-and-pink  robes I wore rustled softly.     </I></div> <bR> <div> “<I>Who?  Who are you?”  I ask, a trifle timidly. I lifted my hands to my neck and felt the cool metal of the jewellery I adorned.  Small ounces of power emanated from this necklace.  I looked down, wondering what it was to make it possess such powers.  To my surprise, it was the legendary heirloom of the royal kingdom, passed down to the reigning queens.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Although I knew not why I was wearing it, it did make me feel a certain measure of assurance.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I> It was dark, and misty.  Even with my power, I am unable to fathom anything beyond this mist.   </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Strange.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Someone emerges out of the mist and appeared so suddenly in front of me that he startled me.  Someone with thick flowing raven hair, donning white robes and an intricately carved sword by his side.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Sadad.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>He bows low to me.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“It has been a while now, my queen.”  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>I just stared at him, rendered speechless.  At last, I laughed a short bitter laugh.  Then I bent down low to gaze into Sadad's beautiful azure eyes.  I remembered how captivated I had been by Sadad when I first met him.  His charm and charisma, they never fail to help me transcend into a world almost like that of a dream.  A beautiful world, where I always experienced true peace.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Listen to me, Sadad.”  I lift my hands to his eyes, willing them to look at me.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Sadad fixes his gaze on me, those eyes, so tranquil and yet, speaks volumes of untold sadness.  Sadad listens to me.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>He always does.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“I am no longer your queen, you see?  I do not deserve it.  I tried to kill Philaro…”I almost choked on my own tears.  My body felt as though it was being stabbed by thousands of shreds of ice and yet, something flaming was writhing in my veins, pulsing along with such speed, I had to gasp for breath.  I looked around, trying to make light of my surroundings, yet, it whizzes past me.   Perhaps, this was punishment for trying to kill Philaro…Perhaps…Philaro was doing this to me, he was powerful enough to kill me if he wanted.   The “Sun” wields great power..  I, the “Moon”, possess powers that were beneath him.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>And yet, deep down…I knew he would never kill me.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Just like I would never kill him.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>A long slim finger reaches up to wipe away my tears.  Sadad.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>He gazes deep into my eyes.  For a moment, I felt as though he was looking into me, trying to “feel” my soul.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Memories of the past, they flicker through my mind, those memories of when I had little tiffs or silly arguments with Philaro, my "Sun".  Sadad was always there to console me and to admonish Philaro if needed.  Of course, Sadad doted on Philaro too, but had a soft spot for me.  I remembered that he ever mentioned that I reminded him of his sister.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“My queen, the “Sun” will never blame you.  He loves you too much to do that.”  Sadad whispers gently into my ear.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Too mortified to speak, I just embrace Sadad tightly, clinging on to him as if I would never let go.  He just strokes my hair softly.  Just like a brother once again offering consolation to this confused sister of his.  And once again…I feel that long lost emotion again…</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Peace.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“My Lunarena, please do not die.  Be strong and live on.  You shall be reunited with the “Sun” one day.”  Sadad speaks to me with such profound sincerity; I am forced to look away.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Sadad, I do not want to be compelled by Azlar to kill Philaro…I would rather die than do that.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Sadad rests his strong hands on my shoulders and gently turns my chin to face him.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Listen, my Lunarena.  You have powers far greater than Azlar.  Being the “Moon”, you possess the greatest powers after Philaro, the “Sun”.  It is only that your powers have too, been sealed.  I know that you are bond by the ancient contract to submit to the “Sun”.  Azlar is no true “Sun”.  You do not have to fear him.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“But he might hurt Philaro…”  I could not help voicing that out.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“And will your dying help?  It only serves to further aggravate the grief of the “Sun”.  By taking care of yourself than only will the “Sun” be safe.  You are so much a part of him, that if he lost you…it would be just like a part of him had died.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Yes, Sadad was right.  I too, would feel that way too, if Philaro, my love, died.  I remembered how delighted and relieved I had felt when I saw Philaro again when I had tried to kill him earlier.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>A wild hope that I might be able to see him again still lingers in me.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Perhaps, just perhaps…</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“From the bottom of my heart, thank you, Sadad.”  He smiles a sad smile.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Do not worry, my queen, Azlar…he loves you too.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>What?  I meet Sadad's eyes and see only truth there.  Sadad was not lying.  I knew that he could see many things.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“No, Sadad.  I am only something to help him ascend the throne, an affirmation that he is the true “Sun”.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“No, my queen.  The two “Sun”s, they both love you and would willingly die for you, impossible though it may seem for Azlar, but Azlar treasures you.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Was that true?  Would there come a day when I might have difficulty killing Azlar?</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“It is time for me to leave, my queen.  I will always be your loyal subject for eternity.  Till we meet again.”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>"Wait, Sadad!  Please watch over Philaro!"  I looked up at him, imploring him to agree to my request.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>There is silence.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>"I am and will always  be watching over the both of you."</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>The mist clears and Sadad is gone.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>The world around me…it is solely...</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Emptiness…</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Just what what the name “Sadad” meant…</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Emptiness</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>A sound in the faint distance catches my attention.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>I strain my ears and this time, I hear it more clearly.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>“Lunarena! Don't die on me!”</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>I hear someone calling me.  </I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Azlar.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Rearing my head to look at the spot where Sadad had been, I flipped my hair over my shoulders and steadily walked towards a bright light that was piercing my eyes.  Hope blossomed in my entire entity.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>I shall be strong.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>For my “Sun”, I shall triump.</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Philaro Bercanees Feliwoono…you are my only “Sun”…    </I></div> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id21.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="RedMoon"><U><I>Back to RedMoon?</I></U></A></div> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>