My name is Peggy, I am Chads' Grandma and I feel a loss for words to express my grief, but I would like to share with you my thoughts about my handsome, healthy, and beautiful Chad. Please bear with me and I will share with you a Grandparent's grief as I feel it. I was not happy when I found out that my youngest daughter was going to be a teenage Mother. I was a young Mom myself and I knew the heartches that she would face, but never in my wildest dreams did I know it would end with the pain in my heart like this. It is hard being a grandparent, at least it was especially for us because we had a lot of responsibility with Chad, we loved him as our own even though we knew that at some point our daughter, Cathy would move out of our home and make a life for herself and Chad. Some of my fondest memories are probably the most simple such as picking Chad up from day care after work, nursing him through chicken pox and watching him grow into a heaalthy, handsome, and very athletic young man, playing football and baseball in high school, and having so many friends. Never did I dream that he would not be with us through college. He rewarded us with so many fond memories. He was very respectful and considerate as he grew up. I helped care for him as a baby and when I got older he helped care for me. He loved to tease me by wanting to mess up my hair after going to the beauty shop. borrowing my car ocassionally to be with his friends, never displaying to me the depression inside of him. Cathy says she understands the depression he suffered from. He was so loved by all that knew him so it was a terrible shock that I still cannot understand when he was found. If I just could have been allowed to say "goodbye" to my beautiful grandson it may have helped but I was not allowed to see him because of the trauma and it was a closed casket funeral, so there is still the question and pain that I feel, the quesion being "WHY Chad?" How does a Grandma that buries her beloved Grandson deal with the pain not knowing WHY? I certainly feel so much sorrow for anyone who has lost a child so young.