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 God thought Michael, and Michael was. I was told that I was named after the arch-angel, God's general who threw Satan out of Heaven. I have always been a soldier, for as long as I remember. The war I fight in is life. This war is a spiritual one. I will be 30 this year, that's 1970 as a start date. I wanted to establish an internet presence and put these ideas in my head into a public forum. When I was 18 I thought about getting published, now I am. And it was all in my terms basically. So here it is, finally for the whole world to see. This is no small event. Maybe those of you who don't know me need a little background: Like it says at the beginning, I came on the scene in 1970. Moved around a lot as a kid because my Dad was military.....what I walked out of childhood with was, among other things, the ability to assimilate new cultures and peoples, their customs habits, thought processes and patterns....i.e...I could become them. This is no small thing, I learn foreign languages with ease and I retain all of this in my sub-conscience for later retrieval. Consequently, this makes me quite a complex, and at times, confusing kind of person to keep up with. I have habits and idiosyncrasies that don't always fit what makes "sense" to people due to their inexperience in the "global village". As a teenager I was extremely angry about many things. Whether it was political hypocrisy of any level, (read high school cliques), or national foreign policies, or the fact that I just didn't feel I was being taken very seriously when I tried to share my ideas to people who although grown didn't have the benefit of experience that I did. Stupid, condescending crap from people who couldn't find their way around the block in the real world acting like this pond was the only pond without realizing the effect they could have worldwide. Small thinking bothers me because it's self destructive. I understand it, I've even done it, but even when I did I knew it was wrong and later repented. So, I was angry. And even though I had all these ideas in my head , and many positive experiences to share, you people just had me thinking small, and I didn't want to share with you the beauty I kept inside me, the strength I use to keep me going. But like I said, I knew it was wrong, so one day I started to write it all down as it came to me in a form that I could communicate. See, I think in complete ideas, through and through to the last detail; when it comes to me it's a package that I know, it's a package that I feel, but explaining it to someone else involves a decompression, I have to unzip the file so to speak. Sometimes the concepts are way too much for people at the beginning for them to stay and see the entire package. That's their loss. Once the material was on paper, (how low tech is that?) I had to edit for content, stream of consciousness and keep it real. Once this was done, I was searching for the proper way to get it to you, the world, so it would have been shared. But this process was stalled and I did not have the energy to keep trying with my own life to live being a priority. Then came this opportunity to present this web site. This is better than a book, better than a movie. The reason is dynamics. I can edit the content at will. Add to it, delete it, whatever I want, whenever I want, as Truth and Experience dictate. I can keep these ideas fresh and relevant. Of course, there are some timeless truths in these ideas, but I may always think of a better way to relate them and make the correction, so one day something you didn't understand suddenly becomes crystal clear, and I go from crazy to pioneer in your mind. (Not that this matters to me at all. I care about what I think of me, this thinking has priority, consider it a higher directive to me.) Ultimately, I believe I, and everyone around has a purpose. It is up to us to find this purpose, or if you have the will, choose this purpose. But be about something. Because in the end, one way or the other, you will be. And don't let nothing be the something you were about. |
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