Going to another Place

<body topmargin=0 leftmargin=0 marginheight=0 marginwidth=0> <table cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0 height="100%"><tr> <td valign="top" rowspan="2" width=210 BGCOLOR="#9999FF" TEXT="#080000" bgproperties="fixed" background="06a76ba3.gif"> <div> <B>Lullaby In Blue</B></div> <div> <B>as sung by Bette Midler</B></div> <bR> <div> <B><IMG SRC="2e796960.gif" border=0 width="150" height="150" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I know that I'm no saint. My head is in the clouds. They called you a mistake, but I still, I still say your name out loud. </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>They called me a stupid girl, just like my mom. Too many men passed through my arms. At seventeen I looked into your eyes, knew I could never comfort your cries. Every April still reminds me of you. The child I never knew. My lullaby in blue. </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>It all goes by so fast. How lovely you must be. Why you've reached the age at last that I was when your daddy lived with me. </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>How I wish we could meet somewhere talk it through. There is so much I would say to you. There are others, I'm not alone. A younger brother you've never known, and a baby girl who so reminds me of you. The child I never knew. My lullaby in blue. </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>As the years go by, try not to think of us sadly. Believe it if you can, I wanna see you so badly. On your birthday, Mama's thinking of you. The child I never knew. My lullaby in blue. My lullaby in blue. My lullaby </B></div> <bR> <div>   <script language="JavaScript">  </script>   </div> <bR> <div> <B> </B></div> <bR> </td> <td valign="top" colspan=2 height=90 BGCOLOR="#99CCFF" TEXT="#080000" bgproperties="fixed" background="06b76bc1egdyqn.gif"> <div> <B>In all the world there is no one exactly like me.</B></div> <div> <B>Virginia Satir</B></div> <div> <B>Back to   </B><A HREF="index.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Home"><U><B>home</B></U></A><B>      </B><FONT SIZE="1" COLOR="#CC0000" FACE="Times New Roman" ><B> </B></FONT><FONT SIZE="1" COLOR="#000033" FACE="Times New Roman" ><B>See list  on bottom of  pages for the rest of my story.</B></FONT></div> <div> </div> </td> </tr><tr> <td valign="top" height=390 colspan=2 BGCOLOR="#99CCFF" TEXT="#080000" bgproperties="fixed" background="06b76ba3.gif"> <div> <B>Going to another Place</B></div> <div> <B><IMG SRC="3c53f0a0.gif" border=0 width="575" height="10" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <div> <B><IMG SRC="2e796960.gif" border=0 width="150" height="150" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"><IMG SRC="2e796960.gif" border=0 width="150" height="150" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"><IMG SRC="2e796960.gif" border=0 width="150" height="150" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <div> <B><IMG SRC="3c53f0a0.gif" border=0 width="575" height="10" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <bR> <div> <B>..."as long as you know that you </B></div> <div> <B>know, you will never know, but when you begin to do what we tell you not to </B></div> <div> <B>do, and do, and begin to know that you do not know, then you will begin to </B></div> <div> <B>know!" </B></div> <div> <B>From a 12 step</B></div> <div> <B> Member</B></div> <div> <B>Thanks Patrick for re-sharing a powerful statment.</B></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <B><IMG SRC="41bc42c0.gif" border=0 width="196" height="44" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <bR> <bR> <div> <B><IMG SRC="3c53f0a0.gif" border=0 width="575" height="10" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I wrote this for Tina. This is how I felt many times early in our reunion and off and on AND now.</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>The Bouncing Ball</B></div> <div> <B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B><B><IMG SRC="69d35950.gif" border=0 width="53" height="149" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></B></div> <div> <B>It is just like meeting a stranger</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>We fall in love</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then we float on clouds</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then our feet touch the ground with a bang, pop, splat</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Pops almost broke my foot hold there</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then the FEARS big time</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then the, I am not so sure I can do all this</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Then the, gezzzzzz, this can of worms is getting pretty hard to hold on to, </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Maybe I should put them back in water for the fish</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I think I will take my bottle of water and loaf of bread </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Lock myself in a room where no one can find me</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Crying uncontrollably and wanting to touch and feel once again</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To, oh oh what if I do...to, oh oh what if I don't</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To my god, I love this child so much....don't they know how I hurt?</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Do they hurt like this to??</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To, ok ok enough is enough</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To, my guts are hanging out again</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To, I AM DIEING here</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>can anyone here me</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Can anyone see me?</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>To, ok ok I’ll just send one card</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>No, maybe just one-phone call</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>No, what if she reject's me again</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Ouch dag-nab-it I am a human</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>No, I cannot take any more of this.</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>No,  I cannot live with out my child</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>Follow me, follow me, I am a bouncing ball</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I am up, I am down, </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I am in, I am out, </B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I am upside down; I am crazy,</B></div> <bR> <div> <B>I am happy... 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