Why me?

<body topmargin=0 leftmargin=0 marginheight=0 marginwidth=0> <table cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0 height="100%"><tr> <td valign="top" width=225 BGCOLOR="#FF9999" TEXT="#080000" background="096c8c83.gif"> <div> <IMG SRC="16066960.gif" border=0 width="102" height="150" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> <div> Click here to go Back to <A HREF="id5.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Lots of Encouraging Poems Motherhood st"><U><B>Lots of Encouraging Poems & Motherhood stories</B></U></A></div> </td> <td valign="top" BGCOLOR="#FFCCCC" TEXT="#080000"> <div> <FONT SIZE="4" COLOR="#FF6666" FACE="Arial" ><B>Baby Blessings adoption and infertility support</B></FONT><FONT SIZE="4" COLOR="#990066" FACE="Times New Roman" >   </FONT><B>  |     </B><A HREF="index.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Baby Blessings adoption and infertility "><U><B>home</B></U></A></div> <div> <A HREF="id34.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="feel like crying?"><U>feel like crying?</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id24.htm" TARGET="_top" 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COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I played with my dolls each and everyday.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> With thoughts in my mind of a real one someday.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I had about 100 you know</div> <div> Each with a smile and name of its own.</div> <div> The years went by and I stopped playing with dolls.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Mom keeps them all together, on shelves on the walls.</div> <div> I'm all grown up now, and a woman to see.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> But Lord something must be wrong with me.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I tried to get pregnant and have a child of my own.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> But it wouldn't happen, so I called my Doc on the phone.</div> <div> They brought me in, they conducted test.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> For 17 years they did many many test.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> The results they gave, was like a shot to the chest.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Straight through my heart those words did go.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Leaving a huge scar, and a empty black hole.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> The doctor said while holding my hand.</div> <div> You'll never give birth to a future woman or man.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> There's something wrong, it can't be healed.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Crying my heart out I thought, this can't be real.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Why have I gone and received one of life's unfair deals.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I want my own baby, I want one for real.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Then I really broke down and cried alot for awhile.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> As I thought to myself, I need my own special child.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Why has this happened, and why Lord to me.</div> <div> I thought you watched over, and gave blessings to thee.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> My life had ended in that office that day.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I even gave up the desire to pray.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Years have gone by since I found out the news.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And I still have these empty motherly blues.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I found that I can help others in need.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And I think God intended to give me this deed.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> For even though I have not young of my own.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I've seen through the years, many young children grown.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And wish I could share that with one of my own.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Though I hurt inside still, when I see a new born child.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And long deep inside to just hold one for awhile.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> To feel that bondage, between mother and child.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Oh Lord please, I've waited awhile.</div> <div> Why can't you grant me, my own newborn child.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I know deep inside, how non mothers feel.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And I know I'm not alone, in this lonely ordeal.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> But we know in our hearts, this feeling so strong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> If we had our own child, all this suffering and pain would be gone.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Cause the bondage between us would be ever so strong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Why can't I have one, healthy and strong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Oh why me LORD, what did I ever do wrong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Then hear my Prayers, and make me strong.</div> <div> Tell me that I did no wrong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And heal my scars, from deep within.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Then place your hand upon my chin.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And let my soul be born again.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Healed and normal from deep inside.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> And to my husband the most perfect Bride.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Then the love we'll share as if all new.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Lord I have just one more wish of you.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I guess I've wished this for so long.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> A woman's dream, that is so strong.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> I'll ask you nicely once again.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <div> Grant my wish a child within.<FONT SIZE="3" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Times New Roman" > </FONT></div> <bR> <div> Written by a friend of Angels.</div> <div> <A HREF="http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Meadows/6746/poem6.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Meado"><U><U>http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Meadows/6746/poem6.htm</U></U></A></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <bR> <bR> <bR> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>