CRYING MOON A Bishoujo Senshi Sailormoon story by Amy Lawson (Kixxycatt) E-mail - lawsg@sk.sympatico.ca From me to you - Hi everyone! It's me, Kixxycatt, author of several fanfictions including the one you see before you, Crying Moon. For those of you who followed the story, all this is is like one really, really long story, with no indications as to which part it is, instead at every time the narriation changes, it says for example, CHIBI USA instead of CHAPTER 3. This consists of all AMOUNT-OF-CHAPTERS-HERE-AMY chapters to the story, Crying Moon. The setting is a while after Bishoujo Senshi Sailormoon Sailorstars, or the fifth and final season. If you have read all the earlier parts of Crying Moon, don't bother reading this one - it's the same thing all over again, peaced together so other people can read it start to finish. And I added a line or two just to get some points across. This version also has a brief bit of editing as well, but nothing that will make you want to read it if you've finished all the parts. CHIBI USA Useless. That's what I am. Useless. The daughter of Sailormoon.. useless? It's true. I know it. I mean, 'Pink Sugar Heart Attack!' Oh, yeah, THAT really saves me. And 'Twinkle Yell!', what does that do? Okay, it gets the Pegasus here. But I can't use it to defend myself! 'Double Moon Gourgeous Meditation!'? I need Sailormoon AND the Pegasus to help me there. Useless! Useless.. Dying.. I've lived my life one that is totally dependant on others. At first, I was just an ordinary child, but now, I'm Sailorchibimoon. And, instead of being able to fight for myself like the other senshi, I'm stuck being the.. well, helpless little pink-haired girl in the mini-skirt. Description by self, and anyone else who would see me. Sure, I'm cute! But, really, not one, I repeat, not ONE enemy has said, "look, so cute, I can't hurt chibimoon!" Instead, it's more like "look, so cute, let's go kill chibimoon, she's so helpless!" Honestly, it gets.. ANNOYING! And honestly, at first it was just the inner senshi and sailormoon that protected me. Then the outers sort of started to.. and before you know it, I have an entire team DEDICATED to protecting me in the future. Asteroid Senshi.. Sailorceres, Sailorpallas, Sailorvestas and Sailorjunos. They're sort-of my age, and sort-of not. And their entire job is to protect me when I'm in Crystal Tokyo!! I mean, come on, please, mom, why am I _that_ helpless. I honestly don't understand why all the other senshi are way-powerful, and I, daughter of the MOST powerful senshi, sailormoon, am so helpless. Didn't I inherit ANYTHING? No. I didn't. Why not? I've been good.. mostly.. except for that crystal incident.. and.. oh, never mind. But that doesn't mean anything! Why did mommy and daddy have to have me if I'm so useless? Are they as dissapointed in me as I am? No. They're not. ..right? No, they're not, cause it'd take a LOT to be more dissapointed than ME. Well, I hope they're not. * "Small Lady!" the voice rang out into my ears. I slowly sat up from my bed. "What is it, Ceres?" I question sadly. The obvious sorrow in my voice seems to worry the Asteroid Senshi. "Pallas asks what is wrong?" asked Sailorpallas. PallaPalla never said "I" or "Me", which was at first annoying but now I'm used to it, sort-of. "Nothing." I lie, and they seem to believe it, the bakas. "Shall we leave you alone?" asks Sailorjunos, the green-haired one. "Hai." I confirm weakly. As they head out the door, only Sailorceres remains. "Small Lady, what is really troubling you?" she questions softly. Ceres is perhaps the wisest and most mature of the Asteroid Senshi, and one of my best friends. I can talk to her, and I know that I can trust her. "Ceres.. why am I so dependant?" It was a simple question in a way, but in a way not so. "Just because, chibi-chan." Simple question.. simple answer. "Please tell me CereCere, I want to know." and she seems to here the need in my voice, but she pauses for a momment. But Ceres gives in, as always. "Chibi-chan, you are still young. You know it, I know it. And, might I add, you are just learning how to develop your powers..." I cut her off. "No, that's not right! When mommy was a little girl, she had wonderful, new powers that are twice to power of mine!" the tears come to my face and I can not wipe them away. "Chibi-chan, I can't.." "YES! YOU CAN, AND YOU'D BETTER!" I scream, losing control. "TELL ME! AND TELL ME NOW!" "CHIBI-CHAN!" Ceres screams back. "SHUT UP!" "NO! YOU BE QUIET, AND LISTEN, SMALL LADY!" Ceres is glaring at me with such anger, but I return an even more ferocious look. "I can't tell you. Ask your mother! GOOD MORNING!" "****, Ceres!" I curse. Apparently, THIS gets her attention. "WHAT was that?" she demands. People these days.. "You heard me." "Trust me, princess, I had better NOT hear THAT again or else your weak powers, what's there, will be GONE!" Weak powers. Had she said that? "SHUT UP, AND LEAVE ME ALONE!" I scream. Some best friend.. * See what I mean? Useless, betrayed. They don't trust me with a secert. Why? Because it's about ME. It just isn't fair, is it? People are talking about me behind my back. And mommy is keeping a secert from me! What else could possibly go wrong? Don't answer that, I don't want to know. Sometimes I wonder if I was better off being the Black Lady. Sometimes I even wish to become her again. Is this wrong to think? I had such power.. such strong power.. and I was a lady. A lady.. my dream, to be a lady. And I was, I really was! I was beautiful, just like my mommy.. It's something to think about. * "Little Serenity-chan, may I come in?" mommy asks, knocking on my door. I say yes and she comes in. "What is it, mommy?" I ask, no, demand. I know that Ceres went and talked to her.. the tattletale. "Chibi, I know something is wrong. But what?" mommy questions. "Why aren't I strong.. like you? Why.. why don't I have powers yet?!" I whine. She seems taken aback when I ask her the question, but I really have to know. And I guess she understands that. "Chibi-chan, you are better off not knowing." Is all she says. "NO! I want to know NNOW!" I scream. The tears once again come to my eyes.. I can be such a baka at times. Always crying. I'll never be a lady at this rate.. but mommy is crying too. Why? "Little Chibi-chan." she holds me in her embrace for a while, stroking my hair. "I didn't want to tell you. I wanted you to overcome it by yourself.." "What, mommy, what?" I asked quietly. "Chibi-chan. I took away all your powers minus the ones you needed, the ones you already had." mommy admits. I stare at her, shocked. What?? She couldn't have done that. Why had she? It wasn't fair.. how.. why.. my own mother! "..but I had good reasons, intentions." She quickly explained. This should be good. "You see, baby, when I had you, daddy was sick. Very.. deadly sick." "Really?" I asked. I hadn't known this, nobody had even let on this fact! "Hai." she said, in a voice barely above a whisper. She continues to stroke my hair, but I can only wonder what she will say next. "I still don't understand." I admit. "Honey.. if I hadd given you all your powers a birth, daddy would have died. I was supporting him, and to bless you of all your strength would mean leaving none for him. You were born premature, very in fact." "I.. was?" I had no idea. No idea.. "Yes, but nobody kneew that. I lied.. daddy lied. about you, about his illness. He finally recovered, but the damage was done. I couldn't get your powers back." No. No. "Then.. I'll never have powers?" my voice was quivering, and mommy's dress was already soaked from my tears.. but to never, ever inherit her powers.. "Yes, you will, but YOU are responsible for getting them. You must develop your powers on your own." "I can't!" I cry. "Yes, you can." mommy assures me, and kisses my cheek. She holds in her hand a locked shaped like a star, and places it in my hands. I open it, and it plays a soft melody. "For.. me?" I ask quietly. "Your father gave it to me, back on the Silver Millenium." mommy says quietly. "And he wants you to have it." * Sometimes, I look at out the window at night. Sometimes, I'm so depressed I feel like jumping out it. Flying.. Mommy is the only person I can trust. Mommy and daddy. And Diana. And sometimes, not even them. What mommy told me will change my life, I know it will. But what can I do about it? I look at the locket. Why mommy would give this to me now, I don't know. Maybe it means something. Maybe it doesn't. Maybe it has the secret to my powers. I can't beleive that I was born then. Why?! Why did I have to be born while daddy was dying?! Why?! It isn't fair. LIFE isn't fair. Oh, Elios, come back to me.. save me from this world.. this world where I do not know if it's the past, present or future.. The 'past-present'. Tokyo, with Usagi-tachi. Oh, that was fun. Better than this. I got my powers there. Maybe I'm supposed to go back? Yes, maybe I am. Maybe I should. I will. I write a note to mommy, telling her not to worry. I'm going to the present. I'm taking Diana, who's sitting on my head. Diana.. my friend. Well, mommy, I'm taking my locket you gave me, and I will get my powers, I'll make you proud. I'll become the new Sailormoon someday, mommy, someday you will retire and I will be the queen. The leader of the senshi, Sailormoon. Not Sailorchibimoon. Oh, you'll be proud mommy! You will! I'm holding my time-key Puu gave me above my head. I'm yelling the words to open the gate. Oh, I can't wait, mommy! I'm so excitied! Aren't you? I'll see you later mommy, I'll be back, with new powers, new responsibility, who knows, maybe I'll defeat an enemy by myself. Bye mommy... * There's Usagi's house! Finally, I've reached my destination. Isn't that right, Diana? It's time to make mommy proud. You know, going to the past helps inspire me, Diana. I'm going to write a poem. Really, I am! And I'm going to call it.. pain. The pain has come The pain is here It's surrounding me It's all over It's everywhere wash it away wash it away wash it away Not too good, is it. Well, I'll work on it. Because now I'm going to train. I'm going to train really, really hard. And do you know why? Because I want to. I want to make mommy proud. I will, and I'm going to. USAGI Sometimes I just don't understand WHY I do things, WHY I think things, and WHY I want things. For example, I used to whine about being stuck as Sailormoon, and the leader of the sailor senshi. When I found out I was a princess, I whined about that, too. And I complained even MORE when I found out that I was the mother-to-be of Chibiusa, or Sailorchibimoon! Now, I don't have to BE Sailormoon anymore. There's no new threats. But.. No. Yes.. I.. I wish.. I was Sailormoon again. Is that so bad? I'll never know. But.. I do. Lately, I've been by myself a lot. My friends have noticed it, and they've commented on it, too. I don't care. Now I feel a safe and secure world up in my bedroom. With the starlights and Chibi-Chibi gone, I can finally relax. No more Galaxia, no more ania-mates, no more real need for Sailormoon. I know, I know, I should be happy. I've even got Mamo-chan back for a while. But.. I'm not. Everything is just SO boring now, I don't know how to do anything without wanting to grab my brooch and shout "Moon Eternal, make-up!" Call me crazy, but it's become such a large part of my life. I feel like a part of me has died, and I think it has, too. Mamo-chan has sensed that too, 'cause he always treats me different now. Or maybe he does because.. Seiya. Oh, I miss Seiya so much! I wish he would come back. Oh, I wish.. but I don't think THAT will happen. Seiya, Yaten, Taiki.. just as we became friends, you left. And Galaxia.. I wish I had a chance to get to know her. ChibiChibi, Chibiusa.. miss them both so, so, much. I an't shake the feeling they're related. They're so much alike, it's strange. * "Usagi-chan!!" shouts an overly kawaii voice. It couldn't be.. it just wouldn't be.. "Chibi Usa-chan?" I slowly turn my head. Yes, it's her, it's really her! "CHIBI USA!" I exclaim, my arms out. It was much different than when she had came last time, but we're on different terms now.. "Usagi-chan, I've missed you so much!" she smiles, jumping into my outstretched arms. "It's so great to see you!" I grin, contining to hug her. "Why did you come? Just a visit?" "Well.." she pauses. "Um, yeah!" there must be more to the story, but why bring it up now? "Come into the house and do your hypnotising act." I suggest. "Mom and dad aren't home right now, but Shingo is.." "Oh Tsukino SHIIIINGOOO!" Chibiusa calls. It's fun being with her when we aren't fighting.. I want to have three children, maybe even four. I wonder why my future self hasn't.. yet. "I'm just going to call the other senshi to come over." I explain. "Okay?" "Um, yeah.. for a while." she seems to be depressed, because she keeps on going happy-sad, happy-sad. Oh, well. I dial Ami-chan's number and wait for her to answer. "Mizuno residence!" Ami chirps as usual. I lower my voice. "Um, hello, Ami, er, no, I mean Mizuno-san, it's me, Taiki-kun, we're here, could you.. uh.. come over and study with me.. uh.. chapter 13.. or something.. um.." "Usagi!" she scolds. "Not funny!" "How could you tell it was me?" "It's not very hard. Would Taiki actually know what we're doing for school.. in the summer?" "Darn! Well, I have some really groovey news. Just hurry on down to my house!" "Usagi, I'm busy with Urawra-kun, he's online with me on my second phone line!" "Ami, it's.. senshi business. And VERY important! You can talk to Urawra later." "That important, ne?" "You BET it's that important! ow get your butt over here, I have to phone the other senshi.." * The other senshi should be arriving any momment now. I can't wait to see their reactions. It's so great to see Chibiusa again! But.. something's troubling her, and I'm going to find out what. I'm scared to ask what, it might be a future event I'm not suppossed to know about yet. Well, who cares. I phoned all the inner senshi, as well has the outers. Mamoru's also on his way. Luna and Artemis are out with Diana.. she's here, but left with them before Chibiusa came to my place. Nobody knows what's going on.. except for Setsuna, *duh*, she knows almost EVERYTHING I think. he's been through it all before! Anyway, Mamo-chan said he ad a surprise for _me_, too, and he'd tell me when he got here. I can't WAIT to find out what it is! (Personally I hope it's a new excuse for becoming Eternal Sailormoon!) Well, I'll have to wait until he gets here. Hurry up Mamo-chan!! * "So, Usagi, what's the news?" I spin around suddenly, to see Haruka and Michiru standing at the door. "You.. you didn't knock?" "No, why SHOULD we?" grinned Haruka. Michiru elbows her and I just smile. "Um.. no reason. Well, you're the first ones here, make yourself at home, and I'll tell everybody together." I explain quickly, pointing at the living room. "Have fun.. and there's the doorbell." "I'll get it." Michiru jumps up, and polietly 'shoves' me to the living room. Oh, well.. "Michiru-sama?" questions Makoto. Her and Minako are at the door. "Hai. Usagi wanted us here." Michiru explains. "Ami was on the way, but she had to stop at the libary.." Minako says to me. "And Rei, I didn't see her yet. Maybe she went to talk to Mamoru." "Maybe.." I agree. "Why don't you go 'entertain' Haruka?" "She's here, too?" Makoto sounds surprised. "This IS senshi business!" I try my hardest not to burst out laughing. "Usagi?" calls an adult voice, followed by some giggles. I open the door.. again.. to see Setsuna and Hotaru. "Hi! Glad you could make it!" I exclaim. "You don't sound serious, why did we have to RUSH over?" askes Hotaru. I glance at Setsuna, who has on a knowing smile.. as always.. and she takes Hotaru's hand and escorts her over to the other outer senshi. "Setsuna, was anyone else coming?" I ask. "Just Ami." she replies. "Why?" "Rei-chan and Mamo-chan aren't here yet.." I sigh. Everyone makes their way around the living room, but I think they're all worried about the news because I'm so nervous. Actually, I'M nervous that Rei and Mamoru will never come. What if Rei and Mamoru are together? SO? I quickly answer my own question. Rei is my best friend, and Mamo-chan is my boyfriend. Nothing will happen. How do you know? Shut UP, I tell myself. The doorbell rings, it's Ami-chan. She comes in, with a textbook in her hand. "So what's the news?" she asks, just like Ami. "You'll see in a minute." I reply. "Just talk to the others. Have you seen Rei or Mamo-chan?" Ami bites her lip. "...no, I don't THINK so.." "Ami, what is it?" I ask. "Well..." whatever it is Ami is trying to say, she can't. Why? "Are they hurt?!" I demand. "Are they?" "No.. not exactly." "HELLO!" Rei exclaims suddenly. "*pant* Sorry I'm so late, I accidently BURNT Grandpa's sheets in my fire. He was so cranky! You'd think he didn't have enough! Well, what's going on?" I feel so bad of thinking anything.. "Oh, nothing yet. Did you see Mamo-chan?" Rei glances at Ami, and they nod. "No." she mutters. And then FINALLY he knocks on the door. "Mamo-chan!" I exclaim happily. "You're late!" I giggle. Rei and Ami glare at him for some reason. "Oh, I was.. busy. Well, what's the surprise?" Mamo-chan.. MY.. asked. "Me! SURPRISE!" exclaimed little miss pink, as she came running down the stairs. No.. sliding down the banaster in her Chibimoon suit! * Well, the party is over. But I still wonder about Mamo-chan. He couldn't be cheating on me.. could he? I'm his little Usako, his ondago atama. We've been together for a long time, for eternity, why is he leaving me now? No, he couldn't be. Yes, he could. No! Yes! Well, I might as well just decide to do something about it. I know, I'll phone him. I dial in his number. Pick up the phone allready, Mamo-chan! "Hello?" his voice sounds tired. Well, it IS midnight. "Mamo-chan, it's me." I say slowly. I can't do this.. "Oh? Usako? What is it?" he sounds worried. And a bit angry at being woken up at this hour. "Mamo-chan, were you with another.. girl before you came to Chibiusa's party?" I question softly. "No! Usako, how could you THINK that?" Mamo-chan asks, clearly hurt. "Rei and Ami hinted that.." I try to explain. "Ondago, you have to TRUST me more. Now, do I question what happened while you were with Seiya?" "No, but.." "And do I even THINK of asking what happened between you and Motoki earlier?" "Nothing, Mamo-chan, I.." "And what about Earl? And what about.. Umino? And what about.." "What about Fiore?!" I demand, but regret saying the words almost immediately after. Fiore was, after all, a guy.. "At least I don't kiss a guy who turns into a girl!" Mamo-chan yelled, and slammed down the reciever. "I didn't kiss Seiya!" I scream. "MAMO-CHAAAAAAAAN!" * Next morning, the doorbell rings. I don't want to answer it, but Chibiusa already did. I hear her calling for me, the door is for me. Maybe it's Mamo-chan, waiting to apologize. Well, I should apologize, too. For the 'Fiore incident'. "Yo! Ondago!" I hear. That's not Mamo-chan.. it's.. "SEIYA!" I exclaim, running into his arms. He laughs. I see that Yaten, Taiki and Kakyuu are with him. "What are you.." "We're on vacation." Yaten explains. "We were bored, and decided that hey, why not see Usagi." "That and the fact Seiya kept on complaining." Taiki added. "That more than the other part." Kakyuu finished. Seiya glared at the three. "Shut up." "It's so good to see you all!" I laugh. Out of the corner of my eye Chibiusa is studing Seiya carefully. I guess she's probably thinking I'm cheating on Mamo-chan. The words return to my ears. 'At least I don't kiss a guy who turns into a girl.' Oh, Mamo-chan, that hurt me and you.. Seiya is just a really, really good friend. "Chibiusa-chan, meet Seiya, Yaten, Taiki, and.. Kakyuu?" "Hai." Kakyuu smiles. The three.. no, four lights are all in street clothes, even Kakyuu is in jeans and a tee-shirt. "Um, hi. I'm Chibiusa." she introduced herself. "Are you the.. starlights?" she asked, guessing from what I had told her. "Yeah." Taiki nodded his head. "I thought you were girls!" she exclaimed. I glare at her. "It's.. all.. right." Seiya sighed slowly. "And you really are.." "Sailorchibimoon. Usagi and MAMORU'S daughter from the future." Temper, temper, Chibiusa.. I think. CHIBI USA Why AM I here? What am I doing, anyway? Useless. There it is again. Useless. I'm useless, painfully useless. There's nothing I can do about it, either. Useless. My eyes slowly brush open as the sunlight shines into my eyes. What was it daddy would always say? Another day, another dollar. I think that a king would make more than a dollar a day, but who knows. The party last night was very loud, and then when I met Seiya and the lights.. Seiya. The name rings a bell, but not a good one. Something tells me I should be watching him. Listening to Usagi-chan and Mamo-chan last night confirmed my original fears about him. My mama.. and Seiya? Seiya looked so much like dada.. black hair, beautiful blue eyes. It's as if they were twins. One difference. Mamoru is suppossed to be with mama. Seiya is NOT. I don't like Seiya. He's dumb, and a dada wanna-be. He's mean, he's dumb, he's the reason mama and dada broke up. Mama and dada.. broke up?! Does this mean I'm going to die? I could remember our early conversation so well. > "Yo! Ondago!" Seiya had said. > "SEIYA!" Usagi exclaims, running into his arms. He laughs. 3 >others are with him, 2 guys and a girl. "What are you.." Hai, she had run into his ARMS, like she always would with "her" Mamo-chan! It sure makes me wonder what had really gone on between them while both Mamo-chan and I had been away. > "I thought you were girls!" I had exclaimed, after which I get >the "evil eye" from Usagi. > "It's.. all.. right." Seiya sighed "And you really are.." > "Sailorchibimoon. Usagi and MAMORU'S daughter from the future." >Usagi had glared at me again when I replied. I got the point across! Usagi didn't speak very much to me the rest of the night. Everything was Seiya this, Seiya that. And here _I_ am, her future DAUGHTER whom she hasn't seen for so long, being ignored for a senshi who doesn't know if IT'S a guy or a girl! Like I've said before, Mamoru yes, Seiya NO! * "Well, look who's up!" I look and see Usagi's father, Kenji, who is with Usagi's little brother, Shingo. "What time is it?" I ask. Shingo laughs. "Oh, if it wasn't summer school wouldn't even be on yet. Well, Usagi isn't up yet, is she?" Oh yeah, the ditz. "No, she's not." I reply quickly. "Well, I'll just go and eat breakfast by the TV.." * "Ne, Diana!" I exclaim, sitting next to the little grey kitten who is watching the fishing network on the TV. "FISHING?!" "Look at all those tasty creatures!" Diana exclaimes, eyeing them hungrilly. "Fish are icky." I sigh, playing with my breakfast.. sushi. "Ew. Raw fish are even worse. Want some.. all.. Diana?" "Hai! Hai! Hai!" she snatches it away as best as a cat could and starts to devour all of it. "Usa doesn't usually have fish!" "She had two parties last night, one with the inners and outers for me.." I sigh, remembering the chaos, "..and one for the sailor STARLIGHTS." Diana looks at me and spits out her sushi. "THEM?!" she exclaims. "Mommy and daddy told me about them once. Mommy said she used to have a crush on Starhealer.. whoever he was. And daddy hated them all." "They don't live on Earth," I continue, "but on some star. Kin- Kon-something like that-sei." "Well, they sound okay." Diana smiled, returning to her sushi. "No, they don't. Seiya caused Usagi and Mamoru to break up!" I blurt out. Diana glances at me and sighs. "Oh, Small Lady, you always take things so harshly! Everything will be better soon. Don't worry!" Oh, Diana, if only I could beleive you.. * I look around. Nobody's here, good. Time to practice my attacks. I pull out the star locket mommy gave me not long ago. Such a nice song it plays.. I love it! It had taken a while, but I've finally found it -- what I think is the only open spaced area in Tokyo -- a fenced-off adbandoned building. Okay, I can do this! I had taken along my old stick, the one I used when I was first Chibimoon. I pull it back, and decide to give it a try. "Pink.. sugar.. heart.. attack!" There is a long, LONG pause. And then... Er, nothing. Nothing! See what I mean? Even my attack doesn't work! I throw the stick across the cement floor. It skids, and breaks into lots and lots of tiny pieces. What good was it, anyway? What good was it? Useless, just like me. I hate you, mommy! It's all your fault! You too, daddy, why did you have to be sick when I was born! What did _I_ do?! WHAT DID I DO TO YOU!? Did I steal your own pathetic roses and your stick? Hey, I'll go and beat my enemies with flowers and a stick! It works for you, doesn't it? You can attack the enemies more, and you're just Tuxedo Kamen?! What good are you?! I hate you, I hate Seiya, I hate mommy, I hate the inner, outer and Asteroid senshi, the sailor starlights, I hate everyone! I collapse, crying. I don't care.. I just don't care.. * Tossing. Turning. Remembering. Taking away the mistakes.. What about Fiore? Oh, I wish I hadn't said that.. What about Fiore? What ABOUT Fiore? "At least I don't kiss a guy who turns into a girl.." I didn't, Mamo-chan. I didn't.. He kissed me. USAGI I look at the mirror, sadly. What do I see? Someone happy? No. Someone sad? Close. Someone really, really, really mixed-up, depressed and just plain STUPID who wishes she had taken back everything she had said to her now EX boyfriend who dumped her because she was being really ungrateful and disrespectful? Yes. I let down my hair, and it falls out of the ondagos. I sigh and start to play with my pair. Just my plain old hair. Old? That's it. I'll become a new Usagi.. I'll change.. I'll study, and I'll get Mamo-chan back. No more miss nice rabbit! I'm the NEW Tsukino Usagi! ..or not. I couldn't, who KNOWS what would happen in the future? And I couldn't cut my hair. Mamo-chan might not like it.. Well, I guess with THAT in mind, it's tempting. What are you THINKING, Usagi?! You love him! <> You LOVE him! <> You don't know, THAT'S pretty obvious. * "IT'S NOT FAIR!" Chibiusa screamed, slamming the door open. I ran down to see what was the matter. "What is it, Chibiusa-chan?" I demand, grabbing onto her arm. She glares at me with a I'm-going-to-kill-you-if-you-don't-let-go look. "Let me go! Let me go, Usagi!" she yelled, which I did right away after THAT. She ran up to her room, bawling. "Chibiusa! Wait!" I called after her, but she was already in the room with the door shut, and probably locked. Luna and Diana came rushing to me. "What was THAT all about?" Luna asked, looking nervously at me. "I don't know." I replied. "But I think one of you cats should find out, 'cause she ain't talking to me!" "Isn't." Luna snapped. "Diana, YOU go.. you know her better than I do." "Will do, mama!" Diana replied, and started to run up the stairs. "Small Lady!" * There was a knock at the door at around midnight. I looked up from the Sailor-V manga I was reading and went to open the door. "Psst! Ondago!" It was.. Seiya?! "Seiya?" I ran up to him. "What are you doing here? Don't you know what time it is?!" I exclaimed. "I know, Ondago, but we have to talk. Um.. are you free tomorrow night? I have tickets to a new rock concert.." Seiya grinned weakly, holding them up. "Um.. er.." I paused. Mamoru was gone for now, and I loved rock concerts.. "Allright.. just once." I replied, smiling. "See you tomorrow!" "Yeah.. tomorrow." Seiya grinned. "Ja, Ondago!" "Ja." I smiled, gently closing the door. *** "You WHAT?!" Chibiusa exclaimed. "I... I made a date with Seiya-kun." I smiled weakly. "It's just to a rock concert." "Well, what about Mamo-chan?!" she demanded. "What about me?! And what about Crystal Tokyo, Usagi?! What about the future?!" "It's ONE DATE!" I exclaimed. "And after that, I'll get back together with Mamo-chan. Okay?!" "No, it's not okay, Usagi!" Chibiusa snapped. "I'm going to tell Mamo-chan all about you and Seiya, right now!" "You wouldn't.." "I will!" she snapped. "Mamo-chan treats you so well, well YOU treat him like dirt." "I don't." I muttered. "Then why do you drop him when something else comes along?" she demanded. "Why is it like you use him to lose him?" "I don't!" I snapped, tears clouding my eyes. "Why does the world have to revolved around YOU?!" "It DOESN'T!" "Usagi, I hate you as my mommy and I hate you as yourself." the girl snapped. "You hate your mother?" I asked. "But I thought.." "YOU TOOK AWAY MY POWERS!" she screamed. "YOU TOOK AWAY MY LIFE!" "I don't understand!" I yelled back. "You don't have to scream at ME!" "You ruin everything.. everything.." she sobbed, running outside the door. "You never learn, ever!" * Do I never learn? Will I ever learn? Oh, Chibiusa. YOU never learn. About me, that is. I go through pain, torture.. Other girls go out with maybe 5 guys at a time. Why can't I.. just SOMETIMES.. go out somewhere with a good friend I see once in a lifetime? One who I like being with? Mamoru. How I love thee. How I hate thee, at the same time. And I can't make up my mind! I wish I didn't know Mamo-chan OR Seiya-kun. That would make my life a LOT easier. Wouldn't it? I mean, sure, no loss if I didn't have YOU, ne? You're a brat! I love you, but I also hate you, because you never listen to anyone else. Your word is the last word, nobody else can get a word in ELSEWISE. You are assuming everything, Chibiusa, none of it is fact. None of it. And as for you Mamo-chan, if you're going to be like THAT, as I've already told you about Seiya and me, maybe I'm better of with him. Her. Whatever. Okay, maybe I'm not. Maybe I am. Anyway, looks like I'm maturing, ne? I think about things. And I KNOW the world doesn't revolve around me, otherwise I'd have become the queen WAY sooner. And I don't know about being Sailormoon. I wish it wasn't a secert. I wish I could walk around town, and some people would say; "Hello Usagi!" well someone else would say "Hello Sailormoon!". That would be nice. CHIBI USA I don't know what I should do now. What CAN I do now? I don't think I can do anything, actually. Might as well give up... baka Usagi. It's all your fault, do you know that? All your fault. YOU took away my powers. YOU took away my LIFE. And by doing that, you killed me, baka mama. You killed me. I hate you! Do you know that? Hai, I bet you do. Hai. But wipe that smug smile off your face, baka. 'Cause I'm going to get revenge somehow. At first I just wanted my powers back. To make you proud, to show you that I could do it. Now, however, it seems to me that you don't care. Do you? No. Now, I could care LESS about how YOU feel. You have all your powers. All your stregth. All your boyfriends. All your worshippers. Well, take me off that list. Cause I DON'T worship you, Usagi. No. I don't. I just want my powers I was born into. I just want some justice. And I want it now! It's not fair. It's not fair at all. * "Small Lady? Are you okay?" Diana asks, rubbing against my leg. To this I give no reply, and just look down at her sadly. "What is WRONG with me, Diana?" I ask. "Why am I so weak and young?" "You underestimate yourself, Chibiusa." Diana replies, sitting down on my lap. We're outside, and I'm sitting underneath a tree at a park near Juuban High School. "No, I don't." I sighed sadly. "It's all mama's fault." "How is it?" Diana asked. I glared at her. "You KNOW there was no other way." "There could have been!" I whined, turning away from her. "Oh, really? Then what COULD have been done?" "Shut up." I reply. "Small Lady, with all due respect, you're only hurting yourself." Diana sighs, and walks away. Good Riddance, furball. *** I woke up and looked at the clock. 11 o'clock at night. Rubbing my eyes, I looked over at Usagi. She was brushing her hair, and all dressed like she was going to a.. oh yeah. The rock concert. With KOU SEIYA. "You aren't going out with HIM!" I exclaimed, racing over to her. She jumped back, shocked that I was awake. "Oh, yes I am!" she snapped, shoving me out of her way. "Listen, Chibiusa, I've been nice to you your entire visit, at least return the favor!" "Baka Usagi! Don't you dare! I bet Tsukino Kenji doesn't know!" I glared at her and she looked at the ground nervously. "You wouldn't." was all she could say. "Would and will!" I exclaimed, racing to her parent's bedroom. Shingo stopped us in the hall. "What is it?" he asked sleepily. "Why are you dressed, sis?" "Usagi is going out with SEIYA." I replied. "And you will both SHUT UP OR DIE!" Usagi yelled, and ran down the stairs to the door, while I ran into her parent's bedroom. "Usagi's going out to a concert! Usagi's.." I started, but her parents wouldn't wake up. "They're sound sleepers, cuz." Shingo sighed. "You'll hav'ta tell 'em when they wake up." "But.." I stammered. "But.. Will they care?" "DUH! They'll blow a gasket! But until then, leave them be." Shingo grinned. "Shouldn't you be in bed, Chibiusa?" "Um.. yeah, right. Just had to go to the bathroom." I lied, and went into my room. *** I sighed and looked at my watch. It was only 2 in the morning, Usagi wasn't back, and I couldn't fall alseep. Shingo was locked in his bedroom, either sleeping or playing his Sailor-V Video Game. I have no friends. They were all lying. Lying... Fake... It's not fair. Not fair at all. I hate everyone, everyone.. It's not fair. Why, when I was Black Lady, was I having some fun for once in my life? Why, why, why?! Not fair. And why, when PallaPalla reversed Usagi and my ages, did Pegasus not respond? It could have been better then. Or better if I had stayed like that.. The not-so Chibi Chibimoon. I don't get it. Why am I such a useless little pink-haired brat with red eyes, a dumb hairstyle and no friends? Speaking of friends, what happened to Hotuaru? Maybe I can visit her someday soon. I hate being so weak. I wish I had Sailorsaturn's powers. I'd destroy the world, and myself with it. No reason to live. And yet, no reason to die. I wish I was a lady. A powerful lady. The new Sailormoon, the leader of the senshi. And I wish Usagi was Sailorchibimoon, with little or no powers like me. Compare, let's say, Pink Sugar Heart Attack to Moon Gorgeous Meditation. DIFFERENCE! Soon, I WILL get my powers or my revenge. * I stood up and once again looked at the 'dummy'. I guess that I thought that somehow more powers would come with me on my way there. And now, I had no weapon. * USAGI I grinned at Seiya while we were dancing. "Great concert, ne Ondago?" he asked, laughing. I nodded and laughed as well, not that I knew why. "Yeah!" I exclaimed. "Great songs too, I LOVED the last one!" "Me too." Seiya twirled me much like those old dances.. and I burst out laughing and so did he. "I'm getting really, really tierd, but I don't wanna g.." I stopped dead in my tracks and Seiya looked at me, surprized. "What's wrong, Ondago?" he asked, and looked in the direction I was. There was Mamoru, standing by the doorway with a girl more close to his age that mine. She had short black hair, around the same length as mine, and blue eyes. She was laughing, and he turned away from me and kissed her passionately, extra long, just so I would notice. Seiya started to say something and put his hand on my shoulder, but I just ran. Ran past them, ran out of the building, and ran. Ran blindly thorugh the streets, ran as fast as I could. * It was around.. really, really late when Chibiusa knocked on my bedroom door. She was soaking wet, her hair was pressed down 'cause of the rain, and her red eyes were glaring at me like it was my fault she didn't know when to come out of the rain. I put down the book I was reading, 'Bad Times and Men', a book I had found on mom's place she had gotten as a joke from one of her friends. No joke for me, though. "What's with YOU?" I asked and she glared at me again. "Why are you so wet?" It was puzzling as to why she looked like she had been out there for.. a long, long time. "I had a shower in my clothes." she muttered sarcasticly. "No thanks to you." "What did _I_ do?!" I demaded angrilly. The brat has landed. And great timing, too. "It's what you WILL do that counts!" she snapped. "Or should I say what you WON'T do!" I just sat there puzzeled, depressed, tierd, and amused by Chibiusa. "Um, care to run that by me again?" I asked, confused. "Figure it out, dopehead." she snarled, and stormed over to where she kept her clothes. But instead of changing, she picked up the bag and headed for the door. "Wait.. what in the world do you think you're doing?!" I asked angrilly, grabbing her arm and causing her to drop the bag. "Let me go!" Ah, the memories. "Not until you give me an explaination as to why you're being such a brat!" I exclaimed. "If you insist." she sighed impatiently. "I'm going back to the future!" "Why? I thought you were mad at me, er, my future self AND me for a reason YOU ARE GOING TO TELL ME!" I demanded, holding on tight. "Okay! OKAY!" she whined. "You took away my powers." "Huh? Why?!" I questioned, puzzeled. "Cause." she replied. "Tell me!" I shrieked. "Fine ya.." I glared at her. "Okay. Cause daddy had the NERVE to get sick when I was being born. Mom gave my powers to him so he can servive." "Always wondered why he had none." I joked, but it seemed to have created some really.. angry anger. "SHUT UP!" she screamed. "And mommy said I have to get them back with THIS stupid thing!" she pulled out the star locket, the one Mamo-chan had given me befiore.. That's a joke. Be-fiore. I wish I never, never had said the words. > "Well, what about FIORE?!" Mamo-chan.. How can I kill thee? Let me count the ways. "Well, looks like we're both mad at him." I said quietly. She just stared at me, still mad. "Why are YOU?" she asked, but not sounding worried, actually rather I-don't-give-a-care-about-what-you-think-I-just-need-more- reasons-to-hate-his-guts. "Well.." I hesitated. Why get her mad about her own father? Oh, who cares. "I was at the concert, and she showed up with some girl, and they started tounge-wrestling. I ran out of there." I sighed, the tears (once again) coming to my eyes. "He.. he.. why that (censored by the dept. of Kix)!" she exclaimed, and I just looked at her bug-eyed. "You.. swear?" I asked. "Wanna make somethin' of it?" she asked. Well, she wasn't going back to the future anymore, at least. * The next day, I sat at my table, and began to write Mamoru a nice, long letter. Last night me and Chibiusa agreed on one thing - find that new girl and do something, something really, really, really bad. Dear my dearest, or not, Mamo-chan Remember me? It's Usako, Ondago Atama, the underachiver, Sailormoon. Remember? Sure you do. You must! I'm your dearest ondago-head! The living dumpling, your one and only! But not anymore. I saw you with the girl, Mamoru, I did. Chibiusa knows know too, so does Seiya. It's not fair, Mamo-chan. I'm apologizing for what I said, and now it's your turn to do the same. Like the elephant, I will forgive but NOT forget. It's not fair how you treat me, Mamo-chan. You're mean, really creul, quite often. Your dumping me has become a routine, and I always have to apologize or do something to prove myself. You know, I should have started going steady with someone else long ago. A really, really long time ago. If only you knew how much pain you've put me through time after time after time. And have you noticed a pattern? I have never said 'Okay, Mamoru, it's been great, but it's time to break up'. It's always been 'get lost, Usagi'. So, this is your last chance to be with Sailormoon. If not? Ja ne. For good, Mamoru. For good. Ja, Usagi CHIBI USA So, looks like I'm in trouble. Mamoru. Usagi. Split. Which might not have been so bad if they both didn't have new loves already. Usagi and Seiya. Mamoru and that unknown girl. And me, stuck in the middle of it all. Me, little powerless Chibiusa who has broken down and told Usagi.. USAGI.. everything about why I'm here. Why I'm powerless. It isn't fair. It isn't fair at ALL. Not long ago, when I attempted to practice my attacks, all that happened was that I found out that I have no more attacks to use. Not one single stupid lousy attack! I'm helpless. I'm hopeless. * Usagi came storming into our room, and slammed the door. Fight with Mamoru - It had to be. "So, what did Mamoru do this time?" I asked, not looking away from the manga I was reading. "It's that new girlfriend of his." Usagi whined. "She.. she.." "She what, ya broken record?" I questioned, flipping a page of my Sailor-V manga. "She knows I'm his ex-girlfriend and she's flauting it in my face! She comes up to me and goes, 'looks like he has some better taste now, ne chibi?' And then starts laughing and walks away." Usagi sobbed, falling onto the bed. "So did he get your letter?" I asked, finally looking at her. "I haven't.. *sniff*.. given it to him yet." she murmered, her face against the already-wet pillow. "Here.. let me." I grinned, picking it up. "He's not mad at me yet.. so he won't shove me away. But I will only do it if you brake up with Seiya." I held a picture of her and Seiya over the garbage can and looked at her, seeing what her reaction would be. "NO! Chibiusa, don't." she exclaimed. "I'll only dump Seiya if he dumps her - otherwise it would be pointless. I like being with Seiya. A lot." I glared at her. "Oh, that sure helps. No wonder he wanted to brake up with you." * I knocked on Mamoru's door. "Mamoruuuuuu!" I exclaimed. He came to the door. "Who.. oh, hello, Chibiusa." he forced a smile and looked at me as if I was.. um.. someone he really, really didn't want to see. "Hello there, Mamo-chan." I acted like nothing was wrong, and that couldn't be farther than the truth. "What's that in your hand?" he asked suspiciously. "Oh, nothing, just a letter from Usagi." I acted like it was as unimportant as an advertisement for a shopping mall. "For me?" he asked surprised. "Maybe, maybe not.." I smiled. "Give it here." he asked polietly. "No.. I might wanna keep it." I laughed. "Give it here!" he demanded, snatching it out of my hands. He slowly opened it, skimmed it over, and threw it over his shoulder. "Why should she forgive me? I should be forgiving her. Which I'm NOT. I'd rather be with someone my own age, someone pretty, someone fun to be with, someone I can take to the bar, someone I can be with without all her annoying friends hanging out with me! I'd rather be with someone like Reiya!" he slammed the door, and I just stood there, stunned. "But.." I moaned. "This wasn't supposed to happen!" * "..and that's what happened." I explained to a teary-eyed.. as always.. Usagi. "That.. that.." Usagi stammered. She stormed over to a picture of her and Mamoru taken not long ago. I reconized that picture. She's had it for a long time, I remembered. "Take this!" she screamed, hurling it against the wall. The frame and glass shaddered into many pieces, all falling down. The picture slowly floated down to her desk. She picked it up, glared at it, and ripped it apart once. Then twice. Soon, it was all crumped and unreconizable from what it was only a few minutes ago. "So.. what are you doing now?" I asked slowly, wondering if she was going to see him or do nothing. "I'm going to.. to.." she stammered. "I don't know." USAGI And what I did do was run. I ran to the Tomoe mansion, and rang the doorbell. On the way over I had started to cry, cry a lot. My makeup was running down my face and I'm sure I looked horrible, but that was the fathest from my mind. Haruka answered the door. "Hel.. Usagi!" she exclaimed, obviously shocked to see me. I fell into her arms, sobbing. Michiru and Setsuna slowly came over, with surprized looks on their faces. "Usagi? What's wrong?" asked Michiru. "Ma..Mamo-chan.." I sobbed. "Is he hurt?" Setsuna asked quickly. "Nooo.. he *sniff* dum..dump..dumped me..." I cried, not looking up. "Why that.." Haruka started, but Michiru put her finger over Haruka's lips before she could finish her sentence. "I wondered who that other girl was." Michiru spoke softly, looking at me as I slowly began to stand up. "I saw them together the other day. He had said it was his cousin, but I didn't beleive him at all." "C..cousin?" I asked hopefully. "I don't think so." Setsuna shook her head. "They looked to friendly to be cousins." "He.. kissed her at the.. concert." I said, my voice qivering. "Concert?" Michiru asked. "What kind?" "Um.. a rock concert.. Seiya took me." I said, suddenly realizing the situation at hand. "Then, Usagi, I'd say that he's just getting revenge." Haruka sighed. "Don't you realize what's going on? He's seething at you and Seiya, and he's trying to make you jealious." "That's not true! He threw a fit at Chibiusa, who went to his house not long ago.. and.. and.. said he hates me and likes his new girlfriend Reiya better!" "Reiya?" asked Hotaru, stepping into the room. "That's her name? I thought he said his name was Usaki!" "Usaki?" I asked strangely. "No way." "Yeah, and I even asked her too!" Hotaru exclaimed. "It is so Usaki!" CHIBI USA "..so Hotaru says her name is Usaki?" I asked, confused. "But Mamoru said her name was Reiya!" "Well, Hotaru said she asked Reiya.. or Usaki.. herself, and that's what the reply was." Usagi replied. "Don't ask ME to explain it." "I think that the best idea is to get it from the horse's mouth herself." I said. "If only we knew how to find her." "That's easy. Just find Mamoru." Usagi muttered, glaring at the torn picture. "Easier said that done, now that he's with HER all the time." I sighed. "And we don't even know her last name so we couldn't look her phone number up, IF she has a phone that is." "I hate her and I hate him too." Usagi kicked the bed. "Maybe if I go on a walk with Seiya we'll find him and I'll talk to him. Agreed?" "Go for it.. I guess." I sighed against my better judgement. It wasn't the best idea.. sending Usagi to Seiya.. but I didn't have a choice. "I'm going to eat something, I'm starved." I walked downstairs to where Kenji was preparing a snack for himself.. cheese and crackers. "Can I have some?" He spun around, started. "Oh, it's only you, Chibiusa." he laughed, handing me the plate. "Help yourself, there's lots here. So where's Usagi?" "Oh.. she's just going for a walk." I smiled lightly, helping myself to the simple yet tasty snack. "She wants some exercise 'cause she ate to much!" * USAGI Earlier I had wished that I was still needed as Eternal Sailormoon. I still do. And now more than ever. Being Sailormoon was like a whole new identidy for me, leaving my bimbo self behind into someone people respected, admired, worshipped even. Someone even Mamo-chan thought was wonderful. And Tuxedo Kamen and Sailormoon were like THAT. Helping me in the nick of time. And now he'd just laugh if a youma was attacking me. I know it.. I do. Oh, Mamo-chan, I miss you so much. I can't go on like this, knowing that you're happy with another woman. Someone other than me, Mamo-chan! Reiya... Usaki.. why do you want to be with her instead of me? It isn't fair. I miss you so much.. * "Oh, Mamoru, you're so wonderful!" Reiya laughed. She was looking at me, too. She knew I was spying on them at the amusement park. Oh well. He didn't. MY Mamo-chan didn't. "Yes." he smiled, putting his arm around her, as she picked out a doll. "I want.. the green bear." she smiled. "Not the pink one, that's a horrible color." "I know!" Mamoru beamed, kissing her again. But.. but.. pink is my favorite color.. pink and white! How DARE he?! So say her name, Mamo-chan, say her name! I have to find out if she's really Reiya or Usaki! I just don't know and I have to find out so that maybe, maybe that part of the mystery will be solved.. since you didn't see me and Seiya when we went on our walk. "Mmm, honey." Reiya.. or Usaki.. smiled. "What were you saying about your EX girlfriend?" she looked my way without him noticing or seeing anything. I glared at her and she grinned happily yet tauntingly at me, as if she was saying 'finders keepers, losers weepers like you'. "I was saying she's a thing of the past." he smiled and kissed her some more. No! I wanted to scream. No, this can't be! He couldn't.. he wouldn't leave me. He wouldn't. But this seems to point out that he would, could, and did. No! This isn't fair. This isn't right. What about me? What about Chibiusa and the future? What about Crystal Tokyo? What about.. us? Have you forgotten about everything or something? Oh, no... this wasn't suppossed to happen at all. * From the juor.. jor.. diary of Tsukino Usagi, being written at right now. HAVe done some spy work on the ReiYa/Usaki thing. Mamoru calls her Reika. They're very close. It isn't right. This is very suspi.. suis.. (personal note to ME - get Ami to help me with this) strange case that bears looking into some more. Maybe Chibiusa can help me on this petic.. peticccular case. hAtEEE thiiiis computer. i'd be MucH better Off with my PAPeR AND HOW DO I TURN CAPS LOCK OFF? Like this, Usagi. THanks amichan. now back to work. Gotta spy on mmamo some moree. * I was walking in the park with Luna, looking for Mamo-chan to try to talk to him. No luck so far, no luck at all. Where was he, anyway? Not at the amusement park.. no at the arcade with Motoki.. certainly not with Umino.. So where could he be? "Hey, it's you." I spun around to look at the devil.. Reiya. She was grinning at me in her supirior way. Man, I hate her. "What do YOU want?" I asked, glaring at her. "Certainly not to have a friendly conversation." "Hello to you too." she sneered. "Actually, rabbit face, I did. Can you look at me for a second?" "Why? You want me to have nightmares?" Usually, my friendly deposition called for a nicer reply, but there was a time and place for everything. "Notice how my eyes are so radiant? So beautiful?" she continued to press. I just blinked,unsure as to what I should do. "How nice. I always thought Mamo-chan had bad taste." I muttered as she continued to stare at me. "Look at my eyes and learn." she started to laugh very, very strangely. I began to stare and stare, going crosseyed, and becoming very sleepy. And a pain shot through my hand. "OWWWWW!" I screamed, coming out of my trance. I shook my head, and realized that she had somehow tried to hypnotise me. That.. that.. that enemy? Rejoice! "Curses! Look back into my eyes, you brat!" Reiya snapped, grabbing my shoulders and staring into my eyes. "Don't do it, Usagi!" Luna yelled and bit Reiya's leg, causing her to scream out in pain and let me go. "Transform!" "Right! Moon Eternal, Make-Up!" I exclaimed, and in a second I was Eternal Sailormoon. About time.. I was starting to miss me. "Sailormoon, eh? I was right." Reiya growled. "Time to die!" she jumped at me with fire in her eyes. "Silver.. eah!" I screamed as she tackled me to the ground, hitting and biting me. I tried to push her away, but she was stronger than me.. a LOT stronger. A rose came flying through the air, but hit my arm instead. I started to scream in pain. "Owww! Mamo-chaaaan!" "Back off, Sailormoon, and we'll let you live." Tuxedo Kamen came, but he stood with Reiya, NOT me. Reiya grinned at me, obviously thinking I was about to give up. "Not quite ya egomaniac! Rainbow.. Moon.. Radiation!" a kawaii voice screamed in the distace. A rainbow consisting of different colored moons came flying at Reiya and Tuxedo Kamen, throwning them to the ground. Reiya howled in pain, glaring at Sailorchibimoon. "Who are YOU?!" she demanded. "The future fighter for love and justice, Sailorchibimoon! Time to bust your bubble, Mamoru belongs with Usagi now and forever, so I think YOU should be the one who gets lost! Let me point the way!" she exclaimed. I ran over to her. "Your powers..!" I exclaimed. She smiled at me quickly. "Time to get to business, she doesn't seem to be powerless either.. look!" Chibimoon screamed, pointed at what used to be Reiya. Much like the youmas we used to fight, she had somehow created a hydra with her apparent powers. "AAAH!" I screamed as one of its heads came shooting at me. "Silver Moon Crystal Power Kiss!" the attack flew at the head, and destroying it. And two more grew back in it's place! "Ut-oh." Chibimoon gulped. "I think we need a bigger box." "Mars Flame Sniper!" "Mercury Aqua Rasophy!" "Jupiter Oak Evolution!" "Venus Love and Beauty Shock!" The four attacks flew at the hydra, destroying all the heads but having them all.. plus extras.. grow back. "Senshi, that isn't working!" I exclaimed. "And nothing else is either!" Reiya walked onto the hydra, and sat on his back. "That's because you CAN'T kill a hydra!" she laughed. "Kill them all, my beauties!" The hydra hissed and started to walk over to us. Chibiusa and I started to scream our heads off, and the other senshi started to back off nervously. "Dead Scream." the attack hurled at the hydra's feet, making them give way and fall. It started to get up, slowly but madly. "Now, Uranus!" "Right!" Sailoruranus plunged her Space Sword into the hydra's chest, causing it to wither in pain and fall. "Submarine Reflection!" Sailorneptune's attack flew at Reiya, and Neptune looked at her aqua mirror. "Oh my.." "What?" I demanded, running over to where Neptune was standing. A picture of Esmerald showed up on the reflection of Reiya. Sudden realization started to sink in as I slapped my face. "She's getting away!" Sailormars exclaimed. "Stop her!" Reiya did indeed start to back away from the battle zone, Tuxedo Kamen in tow. "Starlight Honeymoon Therapy Kiss!" I exclaimed, and the attack flew at Tuxedo Kamen, knocking him out but (hopefully) okay. Reiya froze angrilly. "Sailor brats." she snarled, and turned into Esmerald. "You haven't seen the last of me yet." she turned away and started to fade. * "So you've fought Esmerald before?" asked Michiru. "Yeah.. when we first met Chibiusa-chan." Minako explained. "I guess that those time-warping Black Moon Family people decided to come into this time to wreak havoc on Sailormoon, I guess." "Well, everything's done and good, right?" asked Makoto. "Almost everything." I sighed, looking sadly out the window. Mamoru and Seiya were outside, talking about something I couldn't hear. I prayed it wouldn't get to heated otherwise both the men in my life would be pretty much beat up. Chibiusa noticed where I was looking. "Don't worry about it.. I'm sure that with Reiya gone and Mamoru un-brainwashed, everything's gonna be fine." "I don't know.." I sighed. * Later that night, I was looking out at the full moon. The radiant light shadowed me and I stared at it back. A single tear crept down my face as I thought about how not long ago me and Mamoru had shared a long, lovely kiss her at this very spot. But that couldn't happen anymore... Not with Mamoru's cold shoulder on me... not with Mamo-chan still hating me.. Nothing was solved for me. Not even with Reiya gone.. no clue as to where she came from. No clue as to who she was. No clue as to why she brainwashed Mamo-chan and tried to brainwash me. No clue as to how she created the hydra. Not one. I was still alone.. Mamo-chan still wasn't mine. I held my henshin brooch in my one hand, the other hand on a railing. Not long ago I had deeply wished to become Eternal Sailormoon to throw away my problems and get Mamo-chan back. Now I guess it doesn't help.. it doesn't solve anything at all. Mamo-chan may no longer be brainwashed but he still doesn't want to be with me.. "Penny for your thoughts?" the all-to familar voice of Mamo-chan is like music to my ears as I spin around. "Mamo-chan!" I exclaim, almost running into his arms before I remembered that this Mamo-chan wouldn't be very found of that idea. "Listen, Usagi, I.. came here to apologize." he said, leaning against the railing. "For everything." "You.. do?" I asked hopefully. But instead of replying, he pulled me into his arms and kissed me tenderly on the lips. "Mmm-hm." he nodded, running his fingers through my hair. "I think that you're the one person I can't stay away from." "Ain't it great." I replied, snuggling into his arms. "And don't ever change it." **** END.. finally! 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