The Fire Within Part 4 A Bishoujo Senshi Sailormoon story by Amy Lawson/Kixxycatt lawsg@sk.sympatico.ca http://www.fortunecity.com/millenium/lala/59/fics.htm (My fanfiction page, not yet up) http://www.fortunecity.com/millenium/lala/59/smoon.htm (My main page.) Well, here's another addition to the Fire Within series. I think this story is, well.. odd. Actually, I might be starting another 'series' called Crying Moon again.. keep tuned! And if, for some reason, you'd like a preview, e-mail me to recieve! Still, enjoy, and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give me comments! I really need them, PLEASE? ^^ Ja ne! ~*~*~* (Tokyo) Usagi and Chibiusa were at some ice cream parlor, eating some, well, ice cream, as usual. They were talking, but mostly fighting with each other. "There's the rabbit." Kenji says to me, pointing at Chibiusa. "..but I guess you already know that, Darkmars." "Call me Rei." I snort. "Anyway, kill her and bring her back to Esmerald. The body, that is. All for now." he vanishes, not really saying anything more to me. Meanwhile, I'm getting madder and madder at him and less thrilled about my 'job'. But I must, for some strange reason I want to destroy the rabbit. "Dark Fire Burn!" I scream, sending the attack at Chibiusa. And miss, sending the table flying. The crowd screams, panics, and everyone runs off EXCEPT for Usagi and Chibiusa. Oh, wait, them too. Or maybe not. "Hey, you, yeah, you! You have no right to terrorize innocent people like that! For love, for justice, I'm ETERNALSAILORMOON! And you're going to go DOWN!" "For the same thing that ditz stands for and a lot more things, I'm better than her and the future senshi in training, I am SUPERSAILORCHIBIMOON! So preare to EAT SOME PINK DUST!" Yeah, it's them, all right. I can tell by the overly STUPID speeches. "Dark Fire Burn!" the attack goes flying at them, barely missing them but sending them off the roof and onto the ground in a very painful manner. "Think we need help.." Sailormoon mutters weakly. Chibimoon nods as best she can without moving her head very much. I reach out to grab the rabbit, when a rose burrows into my hand, causing me to scream out in pain. "Who threw tha.. KAMEN!" I exclaim, narrowing my eyes at Tuxedo Kamen, who has just entered the building. "Useing your evil to terrorize those who come for a good time? I.." "SHUT UP ALREADY MAMORU!" I scream. "DARK FIRE BURN!" the attack makes contact with his leg, and he falls down, wincing in pain. I smile gleefully, even though he's not the chosen target. Kenji appears in front of me. "Nice one, Darkmars. Just what I want to see, you bringing them down on the first try." he grins that wonderful smile. "Good to see that brainwa.. never mind. Anyway, kill the little girl and hurry with it, Rei." "Okay." I smile wickedly and advance twords the fallen girl. "Hold it right there!" a voice intrupts. I spin around, and ALL the other senshi are staring at me, glaring at me and peticularily Kenji. Sailorjupiter had spoken, and she doesn't look very happy. "We don't know WHO you are, mister, but you have hypnotised a member of OUR team and she must be working for you against her will, because we know that our Rei wouldn't work for someone like YOU!" Sailormercury exclaims, narrowing her eyes. "How long you've been brainwashing her I do not know, but now that you've come into the open we ain't gonna stand for this any more! Not with a friend at stake!" yells Sailorvenus. "To make a long story short.." Sailorneptune clutches her aqua mirror. "..you will release her now AND pay the consenquences." Uranus actually seems to smile at this, always one for a fight. "Don't make us say it twice!" Sailorstarfighter yells. "Do you understand?!" "Loud and clear." Kenji blasts a burst of black energy at the group of senshi, who all fall down, yelling and screaming. But Sailorjupiter is the first to stand up, rather quickly at that. She glares at him. "I never knew you weren't YOU, Rei, but now that I do, this guy is no more! Jupiter.." I run at her. "Oak.." "NO, MAKOTO!" I scream, suddenly turning back into my normal self. Normal Rei. Not under Esmerald's control, under my own will. "EVOLUTION!" the attack goes right for Kenji, and he doesn't have a chance at all. He goes to the ground, and doesn't get back up. "NO.." I scream, tears of rage coming to my eyes. "How.. how.. how could you do that you baka.. how.." I fall to the ground, bent over, into Kenji's back. I don't want to do anything. I just.. want to die. I feel people trying to shake me, water being thrown on my face. I don't know what's happening. They think I'm still brainwashed, and I hear that being said. They think I don't love him. They think that he did something to me. But I do.. oh, god, yes, I do.. ~*~* I don't have a picture. I don't have a voice. I don't have anything to remind me of HIM. And yet, I don't want to thank my friends for rescusing me. I saved MYSELF from Esmerald when I saw Kenji die. I wasn't brainwashed anymore. It just wasn't worth it any more. I was again, Sailormars. But I don't want to be her anymore. Makoto, I hate you. It's not fair. Why did you do that? Why did you kill him, you baka? I know, I know, you didn't understand. You didn't know that I really loved him. Thought you were doing me a favor. Yes, you did, didn't you? I thought as much. But instead of helping me, you killed me, Makoto. You kill him, you kill me. It's that simple. I need to do something. But to be in love with the enemy? To be so close to the enemy and not do anything? To go to the dark side, willingly? That's enough for them to kill me! Even though they already have. So what difference does it make? They won't understand, nobody understands, and nobody ever will. I saw him DIE. He won't come back. Nobody can bring back the dead. It just isn't possible. I know Queen Serenity has. But she died too. And Usagi would never bring Kenji back, anyway! It's too late now. Esmerald took his body away. I don't even have his grave to go to. So now, I have nothing, have noone, have nothing to look to, so why am I still living this life? I don't want to anymore. I want to DIE. And for all intents and purposes, I AM dead. I have no friends. All are a common enemy. Why should they be happy, and I am so not? It's not fair. LIFE is not fair. Why do I have to live it?! ~*~* "..and that's the shortened version of the story." I finish, looking at a teary-eyed Minako. There's a long silence, and she stands up. I think she is going to slap me, but instead, she puts her arms around me and gives me a gigantic, reassuring embrace. "Rei.. gomen, gomen.." she whispered. "Doshite?* You should have told me about this.. should have told us all.. we could have helped you, silly.." she's crying, and I feel the warm tears brushing my eyes as well. "I was scared." I admitted. "I didn't know what to do.. thought I might be, well, exiled or something.." I'm crying now, but I'm also happy to get the story out for the first time in my life. And that's been quite a long time. "Rei, it's time to get on with your life.. don't argue with yourself." Minako sighs, shaking her head. "What's past.." "..is past. I know, I know, but I just.. couldn't." "Well, Rei, I was worried about you earlier. Now I know I should have been. You've wasted your life. Like the elephant, you can't forget, BUT you can forgive." she smiles lightly and I gap at her. "Minako-chan.. you sound like Ami-chan. And you even got the phraise right." We both stare at each other for a second, and burst out laughing. "I've.. missed you, Rei." she grins, brushing a tear from her eye. "Are you back yet?" "I hope so.." I sigh, turning away. "I really hope so." "So do I. Who am I suppossed to talk about other people to?" She laughs. "Not Ami, that's for sure.. And ya gotta admit, the more friends, the more rumor topics." I quickly glare at her, but it's all in fun. Thank you, Minako-chan.. You've brought ME back in just a few momments. I HAVE been stupid.. thinking she wouldn't understand.. But Minako-chan isn't dumb. No, she's far from it.. one of the most intelligent people I know when it comes to the HARD stuff. ~*~* EPILOUGE I stood, looking over the lake. The moon was full and the sky was full of stars. I glanced briefly at the constellations before turning my attention to the water. Its ripples and movements were intruging, yes, but thus was not the purpose I had come here. I pulled out a peticular rock from my pocket. It was a very perfect stone many would use for skipping, but I had polished, cleaned and performed rituals on this peticular rock. No, this one was not just for skipping across the water. I took out a singular strand of hair I had recovered from an old article of clothing I had been in Kenji's contact with. It had been applied to the rock carefully yet firmly, and was now in place through a very small drilled hole. I kissed the rock, holding it to my chest. "Goodbye, my love.." I whispered softly, painfully. Then I flung the rock across the lake, watching it skip many times, creating ripple after ripple. Finally, it dissapered, sinking into the murky depths of the water. And that is when the tears came. God, they came. I had said my final farewell at last. It was over. It was finally over.. he was no longer going to take over my life. He was no longer in full control. We were seperated. So little time together, so much time apart. It was not fair.. and nothing else will ever be. Goodbye.. ~*~* THE END http://www.fortunecity.com/millenium/lala/59/smoon.htm * - Why Well, Fire Within is finally done, ne? ^^ Didn't take very long. Come on, where are your e-mails? Sheesh, people these days.. anyway, thanks to those who have offered your support. Thanks to A Sailor Moon Romance and Artemis and Luna for posting my works on your pages! And thanks for ALL those who have created the inspirations needed to create my works.. may your own stories continue to shine. ^^ And thanks to Rei fans for, well, liking a very cool character, and... o-kay, I'm going to go now. JA!