Prior to being admitted to the hospital, I had been diagnosed with a minor case of anxiety and work related stress.

At the time, I had been employed for many years in a civilian capacity by one of our police services.  My duties were such that I was under a tremendous amount of stress at all times.  Funny thing is, I absolutely thrived on it for many years.  The more stressful the situation and the longer the time period, the happier I would be.

Unfortunately, ones body can only take so many years of that type of abuse before it begins to retaliate.

After being admitted to the hospital with Post Traumatic Stress, I was also diagnosed with accute anxiety levels.  I will also be discussing Post Traumatic Stress in further writings.

In March of 1997, I was involved in yet another motor vehicle accident.  Although this accident was minor in nature, (there was no damage to the vehicles and no apparant physical injuries to my husband or the driver that rear ended us) I paid the ultimate price with regards to my mental health.

Up until that point in time, I had been on a steady course of recovery.  I had been attending a day treatment program that was being offered through the hospital (actually it was the very first day) and had explained  my situation to the group.  Until the last accident, I drove my motor vehicle without hesitation and still went out without incident.  This last accident reinjured all body parts that had been on the mend from the previous accident and had a very negative effect on me mentally.  After that accident, I slowly got to the point where I no longer wanted to drive my car, no longer wanted to be in any motor vehicle and would have panic attacks and anxiety attacks days before going out in a vehicle at just the thought of the matter at hand.  To read more about how my physical injuries and mental injuries have integrated themselves, please read the section "Chronic Pain - My Story"

I now suffer from anxiety attacks, panic attacks and cope with stress of any kind in a very poor manner at this time.  I am currently taking medications on a daily basis to help with these conditions, however, I am also learning that a lot of the recovery has to do with ME in certain areas.  Having been advised that I have to learn to relax.....hmmm, for some reason, that's a word that has never been a part of my vocabulary.  Unfortunately, relaxation has never been my forte in life and I find it extremely difficult to proceed with that request in order to make myself better.

I have attempted on numerous occasions to relax.  Having purchased every possible item on the retail market that has been recommended to me along with many others that were not.  One amusing situation arose when I purchased a CD with the sounds of rain in a forrest.  Unfortunately, all that the CD did was make me have to go to the washroom frequently and I never could relax enough with that particular CD.
 
 

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