People just dont want others
to be happy if they arent..I have
FINALLY..realized this..*sad sigh*.. There are a few however.. I know
want me to be happy.. (Jay, Shan, Greg, Misse, Lady Lib, LaCat..& Laila)
and you guys are my most genuine smiles.. this is a shifting year..my life ..my
emotions..my..everything..shifting I try to ride the waves of change..but again.. someone always wants to trip you up.. or knock you off the board, I should say...*wink* anyways..if you all can survive the changes taking place.. then you will have my love and trust always..*kiss*..H
May 18th, 1999
Oh oh oh.... *slow grin*.... what a month... *dazed smile* Did I really
say those things? (oh and Shan, thanks for letting be in your..er..*wink*)
April 25th, 1999
Finally back here.. what a year.. if you know me.. you know what kind of year
it's been if you dont know me..be glad you dont know what kind
of year its been~! LOL
Some of you here..in our little world.. have
truly added sparkle to my days.. Jonah..(you and me is all good forever, hon)
I love you..there arent words.. to express, the depth of my caring for you Just know I am always here..
Jeri..(because I now know everything there is to know about a person.. and most of
the time I still want to talk to you!lol) Sean..(just because your laugh healed
me and you didn't even realize..) and Gregoh oh oh ree..*smile* (because of too
many reasons to crowd up space with..Hey dork..Guess What?)
July 11th, 1998
I wish that I could be everything people *want* me to be. I wish I could always
be a *darling*..*coote*...quick with a witty comment.. Sometimes people make
it hard for me to be *nOrMaL*..I am so melancholy..so damned prone to the
*blues*.. maybe Im just MaNiC/dEpReSsiVe..=)~, yea..think I heard that once
Miss Diva..you must learn to identify your emotions and face them... QUACK!
atleast I got some great pills out of it..slept for two weeks straight.. and after that..drifted on a fine, floaty cloud for six months..:p
..people have asked me how I can write personal things so publicly.. ..Cause' its one more reflection of me..one more way.. TO FINALLY GET INTO MY MIND.. YOU said you
wanted to know..here it is...! ..H.
