Few more websites - like I need more stuff to read - I aint even read CWG much lately ...
Flightwave Bonuses website
Light Party - heaps of articles and ideas
Website packed with info on "masters" religions etc
Voice of the Masters
Creativity Consciousness Town Hall
Creative health network
Plus interesting results from search engines - Serapis Bey & Melchizedek
And a different version of Metta prayer than in Surya Das book
Wrote another poem "Therapy"-
People told me that my life was too strange And there were many things I needed to change People told me that my life was so very weird And there were many things in this world to be fearedMy doctor told me that my life was far too bizarre He offered me some medicine which he placed in a jar He told me my mind had become distorted and flawed And that his advice was something not to be ignored
He told me to stop dreaming and just behave like the others I told him the ants and the spiders were my brothers He smiled towards me as if I was quite insane I knew there was little point in trying to explain
His advice though well meaning was based on an error I felt his mind was in the grip of some unspoken terror I listened closely to all his delusional views I thanked God Almighty I was not in his shoes
His mind was stable, predictable and inert I wondered if his soul was beginning to hurt I felt much compassion for his sorry plight I wished I could grant him the gift of my sight
I wandered home and I started to weep At all of the souls in this world half asleep Why are some of us just going through the motions? On this planet which is covered by seven great oceans
5-12-99
The ending is a bit weak but then again you could call it enigmatic if you like...
Got replies from Emissary of Light website - interesting question anyway "what is real?" - as I said in the book review of CWG ... put review on website too? The same day I get THAT organised is the day we'll have world peace ...
Compiled a few of the Dreams from New Paradigm
Been extremely busy and extremely slack - here are some of the "best" bits recorded from those days ...
I used to tell psychiatrists that schizophrenia was actually the result of telepathic contact with extraterrestrials. They always regarded this as "delusional thinking" but how can you PROVE it is an impossibility. I also sometimes said i was an alien from a black-hole but I did this just to "mess with their heads"
They are not officially allowed to encourage such thinking but I wonder if they sometimes go off and ask themselves "What if he's right?"
Discussion on drugs/overdoses and someone said he was from a good family and "had it all" - Nup, if you haven't got true inner peace you in fact have nothing at all. Unfortunately, some of the people who need the most help are those you can never reach. I've been there.
Other topics discussed included: Phineas Gage & lobotomies ... wars ... collective karma ... posture & health ...runner's high ... talking to people "at random" .... Jim Morrison & his spirit guide ...the usual stuff ...
Mafu at endo of that Tibet video - Skeptic: I'm Ian Drysdale from the Australian Skeptics. I haven't heard anything here tonight that couldn't be done by a good actress, or a bad one for that matter. I would however be very impressed if you could levitate that chair you are sitting on.
Mafu: As I would be impressed if you could find a bit of self-love. In that understanding, you couldn't be more accurate. I could be nothing more than an absolute fraud, a charlatan, an actress, an actor. I could be a transvestite. I could also be what I say I am. You will never know until you know what you are. There is no point at all for you to worry about what I am. It is rather that if you seek a scientific explanation for how I enter this body. If you seek credibility then I encourage you to come and pay attention to me for a while and apply the wisdom to yourself and then experience that wisdom to see if it alters your own state of consciousness. And if it does then what I say is accurate and if it doesn't then I probably am just a charlatan.
Dreams of being back in the psych ward - a strong feeling as if someone/something is "summoning" me back in. That ought to get you in quick smart - to say "The spirit world is sending me messages telling me I need to be back in the ward to be part of an event that will transform the world-as-we-know-it" ...
There are forces at work you people cannot even begin to comprehend. This world is being transformed and psychiatric patients area vital part of the whole process. It's OK if you think I'm crazy. If I were in your shoes I would come to the same conclusion.
I am becoming so un-needy it will affect social interactions. People do seem needy by comparison. They need you to interact with them. They need you to somehow "fit into" their picture of what a human being "should be" ... or should be "into" ... Maybe my role is to confuse the hell out of people - literally. My "truth" may be more annoying and confronting than comforting to most people at this stage. I would once have laughed in the face of anyone who thought the way i now think ...
You either have faith or you don't. And if you don't, then the world is a cruel and unfair place and can never ever be anything else. It's blunt but it is the truth.
The trouble is I cannot even begin to "explain" how I got here, so I can't very well tell anyone else how to get here. And until you experience this place, you do see cruelty & injustice and you DO regard the believers as quite crazy
How do two atheists comfort each other? I was an atheist for 15 years or more and I know there is NO comfort in that view whatsoever.
I'd like to be a true "healing presence" but this is very early days indeed. Then again, if I can vividly picture it happenening then maybe it is not as far away as you'd first think (no pun intended). A lot of people/situations in the world today seem to need it. But then, maybe true healing only comes from within. Mine did. I always had this vague but strong feeling that i had to go within and no external force was going to be enough.
Article "Divine Ignorance" at Spiritweb site - describes some very parallel experiences to the ones I had in Acacia ward. Something is happening. All these people can't be crazy.
It IS hard to look at some situations and NOT ask "How is that choice?" But I can feel that day is not far away ... when I will "see" that each person in a situation has chosen to experience that particular aspect of the situation. A year ago I'd have said such a statement is patently absurd!
A LOT of people are VERY attached to their concrete 3-D world ... it is up to us to inspire and liberate them ... or at least confuse them completely ...
"My work here is almost finished." ... "I work in very mysterious ways."
Revisited "Emissary of Light" book - you do forget what's in a book after a fairly short time - yes, the Doorway to Eternity at the end of the book. You can just see James there ... plus the time when he returned home and thought "Nobody will believe me! They will think i have lost my mind" ...
I am trying to see a "God presence" in everyone - in many he is sleeping but it is a nice picture to imagine him waking up in millions of individuals at once ...
On "small talk" -
You could argue it is a bad thing. Because it does generally serve to reinforce the small ideas people have about themselves and their place in the great scheme of things. When millions of people are thinking small thoughts about themselves and each other it does create an environment which is somewhat lacking in spontaneous joy, inspiration, harmony and peace. Then again, maybe I'm reading too much into it.
From my own life, when I have been thinking small, my experiences have been equally small.
SBS has another special that takes us to Tibet in one part - try this for a national anthem! -
"The Tibetan people and their beliefs shine like a sun with a thousand soothing rays. May their splendour win the battle against ignorance" Shows them to be on a somewhat different wavelength to most other nations! Who talk of the so-called "glory" of their place in the world ...
A search of the internet showed me that this book has polarised public opinion. Some call it outright blasphemy or worse. Others say their lives have been changed for the better by it and feel it must be the voice of God. This raises some interesting philosophical questions. What is truth? What criteria do you use to determine if something is "true"? Do you use personal direct experience and your own "gut instinct" or do you trust some external source or document as your authority as to what is truth? Is reality something that just "happens" to us or do we create it with our thoughts and expectations?
Such questions are addressed in the book itself, along with those eternal human issues such as life, love, pain, suffering, evil, death, reincarnation, Jesus, Buddha. You name it. As Neale says at one point, "Boy! You have an answer for everything!" There is much humour and insight in this book whether or not you accept it as a conversation with the Almighty. I have found the book to be quite inspiring. Then again, at the moment, you could dip a few ants in some black ink and let them stroll across a sheet of paper and I'd more than likely find some inspiration in what they produce. It is all in the eye of the beholder.
It is very hard to select one or two quotes from the book but here goes:
Hear me everywhere. Whenever you have a question, know that I have answered it already. Then open your eyes to the world. My response could be in an article just published. In the sermon already written and about to be delivered. In the movie now being made. In the song just yesterday composed. In the words about to be said by a loved one. In the heart of a new friend about to be made.
My Truth is in the whisper of the wind, the babble of the brook, the crack of the thunder, the tap of the rain. … I will not leave you. I cannot leave you for you are My creation, My daughter and My son, My purpose and My … Self. Call on me therefore wherever and whenever you are separate from the peace that I am.
Sometimes you find a book you just know you were meant to read. A book that sings to your soul. I found Conversations with God to be such a book.
Astonishing test match! -
* highest ever run chase in Australia!
* highest ever lefties partnership! In the end they cruise in!
How can you win a Test after being 1/191 chasing 222 then lose
9/55 versus a spinner on a flat pitch - and everyone says just imagine what he is going to do in the second
innings (1 for 140!) So very deflated after looking for 200 run lead only lead by 24! then Pakis get near 400
including annoying last wicket. Then we are 5/126 as Ponting makes his 3rd duck in a row - fifteen balls in
the series for no runs and he may not be dropped now! ... 238 partnership by Gilchrist has superb
timing!!
(What about the guy who wants to abolish competitive sports! - as I wrote in my Ideal Day program ...)
As I have written a few times, the one big down side to all this is that once you realise such a place exists you want to be there all the time (TTHAT is why people take drugs or get addicted to allkinds of things ...) In a very real sense, this place does not "exist" - you create it. Just as people think reality is something "Out there" that "happens to them" ... the world will be an amazing place when we all realise the truth and are all clued in and swithced on ... am I becoming a bliss junkie. If so, that's okay. If everyone was ...
Been a bit slack writing in here. Too busy. So dates are not necessarily completely accurate, but what's new. As I said to someone today "I don't like to get too bogged down in detail."
SPIRITWEB tosses up a few more articles - on the Bardo & God experiences etc ... all facets of the same prism I suppose ...
Interesting discussions ... Again Paul davies features - theory of everything - the universe is a thought - but who is thinking it? - - "My life is a work of science fiction" - "Do we get a prize for guessing what that means?" - "Do you cater for vegetarians - it is very tough being in a minority" - I was asked if I was a realist. I replied that i am a dreamer. I keep comparing reality with what I can imagine and reality comes off second best.
Someone asked what the Dalai Lama might sya for his year 2000 reflection. I said that he would probably say "Don't worry. Be happy."
The possibilty of 3D television was raised. I said there is nothing wrond with 2D TV except for the content.
Visit to Bromham Place - see review for newsletter ... could be a good issue this time :)
Interesting quite often to just listen to tother people. On the subject of anger - and I used to be a very angry person - in the end you have to ask yourself if there is a situation you cannot change or influence then getting sngry will soon lead to depression since the anger has "nowhere to go" ... interesting ...
Quite a few websites to check from "Living Now" ... as if I don't have more than enough to occupy me (or distract me, depending how you look at it) One article says we are very poor breathers and advises yoga & chanting ...
http://www.thursdaysclassroom.com/ - from nasa - interesting cartoonies too.
Rain in the morning changed my schedule. Oh well, we need it and nothing is absolutely essential to be done anyway ... From yesterday, I liked that little segment I read in the meditation article:
There are 4 things you can do about a "bad" situation -
1. Change it
2. Change yourself
3. Leave it
Whinge
Of these, only number 4 is completely useless! (Leaving aside the question of "good" or "bad" being a
subjexctive value judgement)
Picked up latest "Living Now" - for a freee mag it has some interesting articles - like colours of food, yoga & breathing, Pranic healing.
That article on schizophrenia in The Age last wekend - okay, don't "romanticise" madness. On the other hand, like anything, it is an entirely individual experience. Mine has run the spectrum form intoxicating and exhilarating to terrifying and excruciating ...
Two extra lines to Dijana's poem? -
You are the poem, not the poet, You are the answer but you don't know it ... OR
You are the poem and the poet, You are the answer now you know it
More in Exercise book?? ...
Keep finding sites - searching for "children & mediatation" ....
http://www.bliss-meditation.freeserve.co.uk/ - The Bliss of meditation ... they all seem to say the same things and make promises MOST "normal" (what is normal anyway!) people would regard as loopy or too-good-to-be-true .... Hmmm .... and IF the claim is correct about learning to meditate yaself into a state of bliss at will - why would you bother with any other "goal" including people. Unless they are on the same wavelength!
All depends which search engine you use - irony ...
CWG seems to have polarised the population - they say never discuss religion if you want to avoid argumennts. It IS possible but only as long as people are truly open minded. Any rigid view - especially TWO opposing rigid views is the recipe for confrontation.
I am coming to the conclusion that faith is a lot like falling in love. it makes no "sense" when you try to explain it or analyse it but that doesn't make it any less real. It is a place I never really expected to be.
More interesting discussions - i shouldn't be surprised. I mean this world is in this sort of mess because our focus is almost totally on external and materialistic concerns. The "answer" is out there somewhere, it can't be inside me. It's a very soul-destroying focus.
There are WAY too many stories of OOBE & NDE to dismiss it all as overactive imagination - but people do - and I did for so long. Catalogs from that Mind-Body-Spirit expo has children's meditations & other catalogs.
Reworked a few poems - "as a prophet" to replace "like a prophet" - "I have no need to escape reality" becomes "I hold a very different view of reality" - "normality" to replace "reality" in the Schizophrenia poem because it IS more accurate. Depending on definitions "reality" covers infinitely more ground than the concept of "normality" ... Oh, plus the "Mania" poem - replace the lines about "sponge" & lunge with "I soak up all the knowledge in the universe, I'm wondering if this is a blessing or a curse."
All anyone can say is "at this stage" because in theory everyone is changing/growing/evolving all the time. Any sense of reaching a steady or "final" state is part of tthe illusion. E.g. "At this stage, I feel I am doing basically what I should be doing. Even if others may see it very differently. Some may think me mad."
More Thought for the day:
* The beginning of wisdom is 3 words - "I don't know."
* The end of wisdom is 4 words - "I know it all."
Sooner or later your soul asks you to live a life devoted to God. Sooner or later you agree. I wonder how many hundreds of lives have led me to this point in space & time. Have I ignored it long? Was I never ready before? Questions to meditate upon.
Yes, at this moment, worldly pursuits, worldly "success", worldly wisdom, worldly opinions have no hold over me. Not that there is NOTHING in them but sooner or later your focus is inevitably drawn to a higher view.
Somedays are sublime - my focus is effortless and never drifts & I find everything to be a source of inspiration & wonder & revelation & connection. Other days, it drifts or I feel disconnected and uninspired or I allow myself to get distracted. But this is VERY early days!
Australian Geographic - stools - books - have a browse around
Tennis - had not played for months - glide around court - some great rallies - and effortless focus on when to hit the ball and to "see" the shot in your mind -
Good Weekend magazine had article on schizophrenia - I have to remind myself that all I can comment on is my case - one person said not to "romanticise madness". I'd agree to some extent. But it is not clear cut thing to decide what is "madness" and what is an experience of a higher dimension of reality. If INDEEED there is ANY difference. Raises a lot of interesting questions - what is "reality" anyway - i do not see it as some fixed, verifiable, analysable state. it is fluid. It responds to our thoughts about it. We create it. If wea ALL believe we have to struggle, to age, to die ... interesting ... Each individual has the choice of accepting their own experience or some external "authority" as to what is "real".
I suppose anything I could do in Tibet, I could do here. But it would be a lot easier if I weren't surrounded by so many skeptics and cynical atheists :)
Had the idea of growing vegies in backyard - if I ever organised myself!
Discussion on belief and experience - in theory you can imagine yourself being in a state of bliss regardless of external events. But few people ever seriously contemplate the possibility that this could actually be reached. Most people do seem to feel some need to "fit in" with the emotional ups & downs of those around them. Seing an event or experience as "good" "bad" or "indifferent" is an interpretation.
When you look at the info on chakras, breathing techniques, meditations, yoga etc etc, you realise HOW much "catching up" the West has to do ...
Titian paintings look fabulous - a "frozen instant" - on a TV series about Renaissance.
Another interesting day - if things get any more "interesting" I will need a week in Acacia ward :)
Topics of conversation seem to be the eternal ones. No pun intended. What do I meditate on? Good question. It varies a lot:
* Poems - including my own
* religious ideas/concepts (I hesitate to use the word "truths")
* Books I have read - esp in last 6 months!
* Articles I have discovered off web - eg Tibetan book of Dead or Meditations at Interlude. Far tooo many to list here ... I do love the Inner Smile meditation that i put in last Newsletter.
* Journey of the Soul (mine and everyone else's)
I aim for total focus without effort (and preferably without words - or "beyond" words to be more precise). When I do it best it is totally effortless and quite beyond description.
* The indefinables - LOVE - LIFE - TIME - SPACE - MEMORY - CONSCIOUSNESS - HAPPINESS - IMAGINATION - MIND -
SPIRIT - SOUL - TRUTH - REALITY - ENERGY - LIGHT - MATTER - MELISMA - IDENTITY - EGO
we cannot even properly "define" these things if asked to do so. But something inside us JUST
knows what they are.
* Layers - personality - looks (appearance) - behaviour. Are all surface level phenomena but if they are all you focus on then they are all you'll be aware of and react to.
* Labels - male - 40 - Australian - clever - introspective - any label you choose.
* Permanence versus Transience. The ephemeral nature of the events and concerns of this realm.
That Shiva method on tape aint bad - 4 of the 7 chakras & affirmations - "I surrender" - "I accept you, please accept me" - I express myself with love and compassion" - "I expand my awareness" ... not bad for a "beginners" course ...
* The nature of God and now some of the ideas in CWG ("Conversations with God")
The list is literally endless ... not to mention the visualisations. In theory I should always be able to find something WAY more interesting to do than watch TV. Not to say that TV watched in the right frame of
mind cannot be a contemplative or even transcendent experience.
Chanting - I aim for a state of mind (or being) where the words are completely spontaneous and random and unrehearsed. Ideally without "holding" those words in my consciousness. Not easy to do but awesome when it does. (Primordial Sound) (or Overtone)
Trying once again to explain the unexplainable (as I said yesterday, soe things can only be experienced, they can't really be explained in the conventional sesne) - There just HAS to be a deeper meaning to some things. I am especially thinking of "tragedies" and "victims". You can either see a Loving God or you can see victims You cannot have both. it is incongruous. So each individual has to decide what they see. Sounds crazy, I know! I* would once have laughed in the face of anyone whao used such words. That's the leap of faith I never thought I could make. To trust that our interpretation of events is based on a lack of understanding of the deeper reality and meaning that lies behind them.
The very consideration of such a possibility opens up the mind to actively search for the "place where it all makes sense" as I wrote in that poem. And yes, at times I still do doubt all this and wonder if I am just losing my mind. If I am, then everyone should be crazy. I highly recommend it! :)
I respect all religious paths - as I wrote in "Ideal Day Program" - I think deep down everyone wants to connect with something larger. Some higher dimension or aspect of reality.
Nice barbecue and took dog along. More - much more - food for thought. In trying to even imagine how you start to convey any sense of what this place is like. It may need years (or lifetimes?) more pondering & meditating and reminding ... then agian we have eternity ...
Composed long letter to try to explain what has been happening & where I am at. More for myself than others? Because in a world like this, there remains the possibility of drifting away from this place where-it-all-makes-sense ... so my prime resolve above all else has to be to reemain in this place. if I can help anyone else get an idea of this place that is a bonus at tthis stage. And anyway, I have nothing "new" to say that isn't thousands of years old. Just using my own words and perspective to describe it.
Rapidly filling exercise book -
From Yesterdays surfing:
Artist from front cover of CWG; NDE & kids - found a site melvinmorse.com; Chopra Forum - a "memo" abou
Kansas board of Education & theory of evolution - see memo1.html
Dolores has written a few other books - even found her name in a list of "whackos". Well, people have been
calling anything they don't understand "crazy" for centureis I suppose. I feel sorry for them. But it's all
partr of their own journey so i have to respect it.
"The secret of life is to walk around singing Why is my life so strange? Yes - I am flying again.
Added a few more bits to "Ideal Day Program" (at Dijana's insistence :)
"Until you see God in yourself, you're unlikely to see him in anyone else"
Did a cassette about my initial reactions to CWG and where I am at. Even if it doesn't last. I could transcribe a lot of it into here. Maybe I will one day. If I ever listen to it. I suppose it's a good sign if i don't feel I need to. To refresh my memory.
Side two was done all in one hit virtually ... it is a lot like channeling as I have heard it described. Or talking in tongues. Not "manic" as they used to be in the past, although that was interesting in its own way.
Once you conceive of the possibility that the most enlightened being on the planet could be someone in a psych ward, you are starting to get a glimpse of the literally infinite possibilities.
CWG does mention power of groups thinking the same way - both +ve & -ve !!! May consider such things or retreats or something similar. If I feel that would add to this whole experience which is already blowing my mind.
"If you don't SEE everyone as beautiful, you need to keep searching until you FIND a way of LOOKING at them so that they are. Once you do this, you will have learned." Sounds a lot like an old Kung Fu script!
As in Acacia, a brief levelling out of physical energy and I almost panic feeling I am losing it. Oh well, it is very early days just yet. Because "normal" states of consciousness almost feel like depression after you have been soaring like a bird!
Walking with Dinosaurs book looks fabulous! Get sticker book for kids for xmas?
From that tape i did about CWG - this is nothing new - most religions say this: Worldly pursuits and worldly "success" can satisfy you only up to a certain level. Even sexuality & relationships. Like it or not, our reason for creation was to have a relationship with God and we will NEVER feel complete until this happens. And if YOU had said even 9 months ago that I would ever use those words and mean them I would have laughed in your face! Shows how far i ahve come.
So! CWG is a vital book for a lot of people because I am sure deep down they want to believe but seeing "victims" is irreconcilable with the concept of a "loving" God. So it does take a "leap of faith" to see choice instead of victims. Even if we can't begin to understand why such a choice is made either by the "victim" or the "villain" I am not saying this is easy and would once have regarded such a statement as sheer lunacy. The leap is to trust that on some higher level of reality & understanding these things do "make sense".
Another poem - "The Search"? or "Point of no return"?
My life has seemed crazy for so many years
But now as I wipe away this veil of tears
I see things before me with such crystal clarity
What I now say may sound like insanity
The universe is composed mainly of empty space
So is your body
So is your face
Step inside this emptiness
Soon you may find
You are inside
The universal mind
Then some free time to surf - I keep finding these amazing sites: http://www.melvinmorse.com/light.htm - about NDE and children - from the Open Web search engine
Plus dolores cannon has written some WAY out books! about Jesus, Notradamus etc - http://www.ozarkmt.com/
http://www.jonesart.com - the artist featured in CWG book (Conversations with God)
Sent review of Hiroshima book to Chopra forum and saw interesting piece there on Kansas board of education & the theory of evolution. You can view it here.
Reading a bit more of CWG in bed this morn - it is one of those books (well they say to do this with the Bible!) - you open it at "random" and there is something on that page relating to what you have been thinking about or worried over.
I f I ever get around to it - i should type up some excerpts in a separate htm file - then agian I could just say it's $20 and a bargain at ten times that price. Either I am just now ready for it or I'm very lucky. It resonates within me like a few books I have read over the past 8 months but this one surpaassses them all. And that is saying something cos I wept reading sections of "Emissary of Light" because they were so beautiful.
I love one section that says if you choose to do this, to live your TRUE nature as God intended you will set yourself apart from "the rest" and people will attack you or say you are crazy or a blasphemer or a heretic. The lesson of Christ, Buddha, Krishna and every other master that ever walked on the planet is that "What I am doing, you can do too. And one day you will do it and more." Talk about tingles up and down the spine.
God at the end tells him there will be 2 more books and what they will be about. He also says Neale has ahd 647 past lives & has been "everything" in them and even killed people in some past lives for very trivial reasons. If ya aint intrigued enough to buy it now ... well it isn't quite your time yet. Though remember I was the world's most angry and extreme atheist just 9 months ago. So things do have a way of changing in ways we cannot anticipate or predict or even imagine
Turns into a VERY interesting day after all - I go to the library to return "1984" cassette tapes. I have a look around ad find CWG is available but has 3 people on the reserved list already. So I look around in that same general area and find three books that catch my eye. "The Book of Reincarnation and the afterlife" by Martin Palmer. Oh boy! this is no pleasant bedside book! Lists the 18 Hells in excruciating detail! From the description of the "offenders" who go to each hell, only the highest saints and monks would avoid succh treatment which seems a bit of overkill, but who am I to say.
The other 2 I decide to borrow - one is "Children of the light" about near death experiences of children. Haven't read much on that aspect of NDE so wortha read and a quick flick shows food for thought. The other is "A soul remembers Hiroshima" and it grabs me instantly. In fact i cannot recall when I last devoured a book in under a day! SeeBook Review !
From yesterday - that "floating dream" did come after a brief period of trying to visualise astral travel which reminded me of the times when I was a child and I would get on the bed and it would seem to "rock" from side to side. (No, I was not doing alcohol or drugs at the time!) Interesting.
Also from yesterday's discussions - when you see someone's pain the natural impulse is to want to help or take it away. But that souls chose that pain for a reason. Even if most seeem to aalso have chosen to foorget that they have chosen it. Boggles the mind somewhat.
MEMORY - if unaware of past and cannot conceptualise future then every moment is fresh. Like goldfish! ... plus "respect everyone's journey" - you were probably at a similar stage not that "long" ago even if in THIS lifetime you seem WAY ahead of where they are at. Plus "+Try not to think of a Polar Bear."
Trauma of past lives - well a bit hard to imagine a tougher death than in Hiroshima book! A man of peace dies a lingering incomprehensible death over 9 days after an atomic blast. the first in human history.
Plus love your enemies - it is in the Bible & elsewhere and people gloss over it or say "That's ridiculous" Atomic bombs - it is truly amazing (a miracle?) we haven't blown up the entire planet!
Walking home from shoopping - it dawns on me - To a true "master" each soul is walking a path of its own choosing. Even if at times, from our limited human perspective it seems to be cruel or unfair or pointless. We may see "helpless victims" of circumstances beyond their control. A "master" sees it as it is. And yes, i would once have regarded such statements as gobbledy-gook!!!! Moreover, from a master's perspective, no path is "better" or "worse" or more "noble" than any other. they are just different.
I love the bit in CWG where it says you can't have compassion for suffering unless you've experienced something similar directly. Ditto goes for forgiveness unless you've done something similar in this or a past life.
For "Fragments" - "I have nothing to say. My mind is a vast ocean of undisturbed tranquillity." & "I used to think that my life was going crazy until I went over to talk with mmy extra namesake." & "It's hard work being crazy ... but somebody has to do it!"
Or poem ideas ? - Can we ever know why our lives are so strange, Can we ever walk through a dangerous forest.
A few thoughts for the day based on some interesting discussions. It does pay to bounce your ideas off other people sometimes. Other times, you wonder why you botther ...
First I visited
Photocopied "More Big Questions" before lending it to Dijana. I may never see it again! Oh well ... Actually re-reading it bought back a real tingle as I remember the concepts involved - Does God play dice? - The origins of life - Time & space - parallel worlds etc etc ... I have a few episodes on video anyway ...
"I could happily sit on amountain top and contemplate the universe for the rest of my days. But I think my destiny lies elsewhere."
Poem idea - "I am a digital representation of the entire universe"
Enlightenment poem above - Just pops into head on the way to ermha
From the Tibet video - Yeah! 13 year old goes off for 15 years in caves to meditate. In this culture it would never happen. Would have loved to see parents faces! and reactions!? e wanted to spend the rest of his days that way but felt compelled to share what he had learned
Round table discussion on the meaning of life - I said "47" then changed it to "Whatever you want it to be" (On reflection I'd say it is something for each individual soul to discover - or rather to create), soemeone said "perceptual - based on experience", anothe said forgotten but it will return, another said there must be something more than just flesh and bones, guess who said living every moment in the moment. On further reflection, none of us mentioned the word love. Interesting.
Late we got onto subject of how you can't define "life". I added two more words to that - time and space. Try explaining time to a being that has no concept of it. Impossible. Again that word pops up - love.
Discussing "Conversations with God" got us onto Bible and Adam & Eve and they only had 2 sons - so we are all inbred! and so are the animals if Noah's Ark is to be taken literally! Then again an omnipotent being probably can bend the rules a bit. he made them! :)
I think that also got us onto faith and the Christians being fed to the lions with a smile on their faces.
* If you associate/surround/interact with ONLY those people with an impoverished concept of reality/who we are/ why we are here well that is the only view you'll see. And you'll come to think it is the ONLY view. Not that there aren't various enjoyments and enjoyable aspects at each level. I mean a dog has more genuine spontaneous fun chasing a ball than a lot of people seem to.
* Oh a lot was perfect "in my head" ... oh well ...
* It is very early days but already that which i used to be interested in and focus on no longer grabs me at all. This makes most "normal" conversations tough. I literally have nothing to say on a lot of matters because they are NOT what I choose to focus on at all. Each individual chooses what is important for them but I have now drifted a long way from what the ordinary folk are thinking about. That makes it hard to connect on averbal level.
* People do spend a LOT o f time on matters which are ultimately just distractions. All the while, they have this vague, unarticulated feeling ddeeep down that ther must be something more, something else we should be doing. ... could go ON & ON with that particular theme.
* I know this all sounds like I have flipped and in a very real sense I have. In a good way. Eventually this will happen to everyone in one way or another. Our current view of reality and normality is merely one step along an evolutionary process and will be out o f date one day. Maybe sooner than you'd think.
* "I could happily sit on amountain top and contemplate the universe for the rest of my days. But I think my destiny lies elsewhere."
* This is a transition period for the whole of humanity. There will inevitably be a degree of pain and confusion as people's consciousness shifts to a new and improved pespective. But in the END we will all be far better off. Better than even I can imagine. I have had glimpses of the WAY it can be - CWG - Twyman - Chopra and many others are saying the same thing. Plus internet sites - top ten ...
Plus we had some discussion on tough questions to ask God. I think this arose from my comment that I'm noy that keen on sitting around playing a harp for all eternity. Interesting topic to arise given I am reading Conversations With God which does exactly that - in fact Neale comes up with some beauties I had not even thought of. I think it also arose after a chat about leaders & followers. Again, I said I have no desire to be a leader or a follower. It tests the imagination but that is my picture of the ideal world Nobody feels any need to lead or to follow. Each walks his or her own path. But how to get there from any existing system is a good question.
Added a new section to "Ideal Day Program" -
Dave, Phil, Kate, Dianne & Geoff are having dinner over at Dijana's place. She is cooking her speciality of roast light with a side dish of baked air. All washed down with fresh spring water from her Japanese Zen garden. They spend an enjoyable evening with a group meditation session along with some star gazing in the serene atmosphere of the spacious back yard where Dijana's Kookaburras seem to laugh all day long. She has had enough counseling on her self-esteem to realise they aren't really laughing at her. The sounds of crickets and tree frogs add further to the ambience.
Before I get to that typing, I walk th dog and that is the way I should have phrased it - If anyone finds what i do amazing (or anyone else for that matter - Buddha was 2500 years ago after all!), remember we are all equally amazing. If we don't see it that way, we're just looking at it from the wrong perspective. Actually that sounded a lot better in my head ...
Here's the 4 pages -
A few brief notes from Nov 7 & 8, 1999
Well, I thought this "thing" had gone as far and as weird as it could. I should have known better. This is
going to stretch the imagination of anyone who reads it but this is what happened - at least from my
perspective. (What anyone else was thinking, I can only speculate). All day I was "phasing" in and out of two
realities. What we call "normality" is just a tiny speck in an ocean of infinite possibilities. This is a
concept most people never get a handle on unless, like me, they have experiences which literally
blow their minds.
I'm still not sure if this is a good or a bad thing. That decision or interpretation rather depends on where you are standing (or understanding, in the literal sense)
These notes are some 16 hours after the "event", so to speak. For once I did not feel the obsessive need to chronicle everything as it happened, which often interrupts the flow. In fact, i think I have nailed the major source of the stress. In social situations, I don't want to appear rude. And I am still searching for a tactful way of saying, "I'm just not into this conversation at the moment becuase it is based on an extremely narrow, uninspiring and unenlightened view of reality and who we are and why we are here." I may find it some day. Until then, I will just have to resort to strategic withdrawals as I did yesterday (for six hours)
When there is a whole roomm full of people and lound & animated discussions taking place, I very often "freak out" and just have to get out of there. I literally can't focus or think straight. It has become an enormous effort to remember how "normal" people view reality. And I am fast coming to the conclusion it aint worth the effort. As I wrote on that amazing day 10 days ago - I can see why Tibetans go off and meditate in caves for ten years or more. When you no longer devore a large percentage of time, energy and thought processes to expressing or explaining or defending your own point of view ... well, you can take yourself to some amazing places. I have had glorious glimpses of those places - especially in Acacia in February. Once you have had such glimpses, normality holds precious little appeal or attraction. Not to say there arent some people dwelling in normality and enjoyoing it. But the success rate in this modern version of normality aint too high. Just look around you.
Anyway, back to the srory ... So I was in a bedroom for 6 hours (well, really 16 hours if don't count the time I took for a shower. Now, most people would ask "What did you do all that time?" In any conventional sense, I did "nothing" except lie on the bed. However, this just demonstrates how pre-occupied people are with observable or "productive" action. (Sounds a lot like something I just read in "Meditations" by Thomas Moore.) I did the longest sustained meditation/visualisation/imagination that I have ever done. At times, I saw vivid images in front of me with my eyes closed. Images of past events, theoretical worlds, possible futures. It was an awesome experience. In fact i dare say I could have gone a lot further had it not been for the incessant drone of conversation from other parts of the house.
Now I realise that is a somewhat insulting description and I'm sure a lot of people quite enjoy their conversations. But to me, on that day, it was like an annoying droning of a swarm of bees. In fact worse than a swarm of bees, because at least the bees are doing what nature intended them to do. Few human beings (maybe even myself) are truly doind what our natures are supposed to be doing. That's why the world appears to be in a state of chaos and disharmony.
Okay, now to the few written notes that I made after waking from a phenomenal night's sleep - given that I went to bed at 8 PM (the earliest in maybe ten years!) and finally resurfaced about 7 AM!
First up I wrote a poem:
It must be something about the house in Flinders. I have had the most extraordinary dreams down there. (Apart from the one in Acacia ward where I dreamt that I died and I floated in complete peace and trust towards a white light!) Anyway this was an astinishingly vivid dream. In the dream, I was inside the Suzanne St house in the lounge room. I was standing close to one of the walls and after a brief period of intense concentration, I spontaneously step out of my body. When I say "vivid" that is exactly what I mean. I was actually ther. I could really feel what it was like to step out of my body and it was amazing. Mind blowing. I had the feeling often described by all the mystics that the bondary between "me" and the rest of the universe simply dissolved. I felt incredible and just had to tell someone. So I called out to whoever else was in the house.
Suddenly, I am floating on my back in mid air! (I have had dreams of flying when I was younger but this was entirely new and a much more vivid sensation.) I am floating around the house on my back and everyone is just watching me dumbfounded and amazed. Then, for the first time ever in a dream I felt the actual physical sensation of the sense of touch. I was floatin towards one of the walls in the hallway and definitely felt my toes touch the wall. I was quite surprised because I felt so light that I fully expected to pass right through the wall itself. In a later dream, I also felt the physical sensation of touch. We are in the middle of a field and building a huge fire around the base of a tree. I am half way up the tree and as I climb down, I step into part of the fire and definitely feel the heat. I had several more dreams before waking. In one, I was singing "I'ts a wonderful world" like Louis Armstrong. Dont' ask me what it all means. And no, I am not doing any drugs! Imagine how bizarre I'd be if I did!
(Oh before I forget - I had been "visualising" astral travel at times during that long session lying on the bed.)
Inthat earlier floating dream, I remember thinking "Dianne has to see this." Then I realised it was a dream so i tried to dream her into the house to see me floating. But alas, she failed to show up. I don't know, she can't even be relied upon to be punctual in the dreamworld. Only kidding, Dianne.
Strangely, not having eaten in maybe 18 hours I feel no hunger or fatigue. In fact, i feel pretty amazing. Maybe it is true. Your "belief system" actually creates reality. If you believe you must eat or must sleep or must struggle ... Remember in Acacia when I was absolutely flying like a kite on very little sleep and the normal "appetite" feelings vanished. Food for thought.
I could write several dozen pages about what went through my mind yesterday during that extended period lying on the bed. Maybe it is just as well I had no pen, so I just went with the flow without stopping to record it all on paper. I cearly remember the following thought spontaneously popping into my consciousness - "Normality is a tiny speck in a sea of infinit posibilities. But the human race is not yet famous for its amount of tolerance and understanding. So people like me generally try to "conform" or pretend to be "just like everyone else". While others I am sure, realise the futility of trying to fit in with such a warped reality go off and do their thing in complete isolation and you'd probably never hear from them about what they are doing. That's effectively what I did fro over ten years and vowed never to even try to "fit in". Maybe that original choice is still the best. Until the human race evolves to the next stage, in which case there will be no issue of "fitting in". You only need to "adjust" or "fit in" when the majority are living in a completely artificial manner.
I had many chaotic, seemingly random thoughts flooding through my brain. As happened in Acacia ... "Twelve is the intangible number and I am the twelve apostles"
Oh yes, further along the lines of one of the above lines of thought, regards the majority of "normal" conversations I have heard or been part of in my lifetime - I often do feel like blowing people's minds totally (maybe I should) by saying something along the lines of "Do you really think this is what we should be focusing our attention on? These ephemeral, transient events that aren't even all that interesting at the time and are usually forgotten within a few days. Do you really think we were created to waste our time on such insignificant nonsense? Do you?" We really are very silly creatures. Sometimes you have to laugh or you'll go mad.
Maybe I should dare to be a bit controversial to shake people up? But I have to respect their right to choose the path they are on even if it seems strange to me. I'm sure most people would look at the path i have chosen and think I am crazy.
I thought I made a few more notes but that should give some impression of where I was for several hours. I love the idea from "Conversations with God" that God is talking to everybody all-the-time. But few of us ever stop and listen. Most of us are far too fond of the sound of our own voices. Or we keep ourselves so busy and occupied we have no time for listening. I feel that is changing even if one look at the six o'clock news would tend to suggest otherwise ... Like James Twyman, Deepak Chopra and many others are saying. That is all we have to do as a human race. Stop and listen and go with the flow. A year ago, I'd have said they are off-with-the-fairies. Now I have joined them and it's an amazing place to be. I may never come back.
(As i think of it - this IS going yo be an issue for some time I'd say. How far do I really want to fit in with "normal" people given the way I view "normality". I feel normality may be about to undergo such a radical shift it will no longer exist. I know that sounds like crazy, delusional thinking but remember I have had experiences few "normal" people are even capable of imagining. If/when this radical shift occurs, well this issue and most other seemingly unsolvable problems and issues will simply vanish. It will be, from our point of view a "miracle". Yet, when viewed froma higher perspective of reality, it will seem a natural event. Hope I haven't lost anyone - that is my major current frustration. This all sounds typically "insane" thinking simply because it goes far beyond most people's experiences. Anyway, I may well decide to find some tactful way to merely avoid such situations or I may become even better at insulating myself from the effects of being dragged back down to a far lower level of understanding. I may even develop the ability to convey my "vision" in the spoken form rather than mere;y the written form. But that seems a fair way off just at the moment. I mean after all this is only 8 months into this process which is the blink of an eye in real terms But I do struggle with how to "explain" this stuff to people - especially family - who simply haven't sen or been where I have. So I have to wonder if they have any way of understanding it. There may be some pain along the way as they struggle to get a handle on what is going on. But that merely reflects what is happening all over the planet. A lot of people feel "something" is happening but they aren't sure what it is or what to do about it. Of course it is just possible I'm crazy. What we call "crazy" may just be a case of someone operating at a higher level of reality and finding it hard or impossible to interact with those who haven't quite caught up yet.)
A few more notes from an amazing 2 days - and it just got weirder while moving books and stuff around I open Conversaions with God at page 78 & 79 - I'll have to type THAT in here as well. Somebody is messing with my head :) Just when I thought it couldn't get any more ...
Before this starts to appear like the ravings of a complete madman (a bit late for that I think) - here's the stuff SINCE those 4 pages. I must remember to photocopy them and then type in here Then again, if i truly trust what is going on, I have no need to panic ata all. (oh, plus remember to tick the items that have already been typed in - wouldn't want to repeat myself.)
Here we go - Yeah, I am sure 6 hours in a bedroom on your own lying on a bed doing "nothing" would strike most people as a bit "odd"! If they only knew. Well, if they all knew we'd be in an amazing place. I mean it's pretty amazing going there on my own but when everyone is there - the mind boggles ... anyway ... Hopefully the day is not far away when their view and interpretation of events is nothing but a distant memory and we'll all laugh and say "Did people really used to think like that! A bit like how we now view the inquisition and the people who thoght it was okay to burn witches.
I'm getting off the track a bit but that's okay ... it was hugely ironic that it should happen on a day when I had taken down New Paradigm to show them how I see the future. (well, only a fairly conservative part of what I see happening really - i could take that article a LOT further in both senses) ... I am drifting right away from any desire or even capacity to conduct a "normal" conversation. As I type this up, I am flying again. This is too weird! "CAN WE EVER BELIEVE OUR LIVES ARE SO NICE" ...
Either I am losing my mind or I am onto something. I haven't quite worked out which. Further ideas forthe "fragments of a conversation" - " You are clinging to a reality that will soon be out of date. Let it go." & "My life has become a horizontal and diagonla series of disconnected fundamentals." & "Twelve is the intangible number and I am the twelve apostles." etc ...
Reviewed a few HTM files I had acumulated over the past months. Decided to divide 'em up into subdirectories for more convenient access. I can be organised if the spirit moves me.
Found a few gems I had forgotten about - that Wingmakers site (heard mentioned in a Nexus article. The poems are wonderful - should include in my links page. Is itwingmakers.com ? Plug "wingmakers" into a search engine.
Cricket - hadn't really intended to watch a lot of it - Australia 0/198 as I write this up. A rarity So much for all the worry about the fast bowlers from Pakistan and what they havoc they will wreak.
Read a bit more of "Conversations with God" - index at back lends itself to lazy readers like me! Anyway, interesting section on suffering and helping others. It said something like "Let each soul walk its path". If you took that to its ultimate, you'd never try to help anyone because you'd look at them being lost or confused or following what seems a negative or unenlightened route and say, "Well, they must be on that path for a reason, which may not become apparent in THIS lifetime." I suppose it is good advice along the lines of never judging anyone or leaping to conclusions. More food for thought. At this rate, my mind will need to go on a diet.
Aussies reach 0-233 by stumps. Best start to a series in ages. Chasing 367. I suppose if they get to 500 or so (and cricket is a funny game) they could still push for victory. I keep reflecting on what i wrote in th "Ideal day program" - what WOULD we do if we abolish competitive sports. More food ...
As I write, I feel totally disconnected and lost once again.
I remember vividly how it feels to be connected but it seems like a dream or something that happened to somebody else. It is always this way. I should be used to it. I hope I never have to get used to it because I hope the connection some day (soon) becomes more or less permanent (for everyone on the planet)
Then I re-read some of the "New Paradigm" that I received yesterday. The piece that cathches my eye is out of "I have a dream of mental health" by Linette Bone:
And my dream...
is inspired by the Native Americans
who believe psychosis
is when a person talks with the spirits
and becomes a sacred person ...
... and as I read it I am overwhelmed by a deep sadness. Because this world does NOT see things this way and so many people suffer terribly. Our modern society seems to have come to a world-view that ignores the spiritual dimension - at enormous cost.
Sometimes it feels as if I am absorbing the pain of the entire world directly through my skin and it will overwhelm me. The world is in a LOT of pain at the moment and UNTIL we re-connect everyone ... well we haven't a hope in Hell of really healing that pain.
Then I go into Myer and fully intended to use my birthday vouchers for purchasing "The Planets" as yet another source of inspiration for when I feel flat or disconnected. I went to the book section where you'd expect it to be. (This is starting to sound awfully like those stories of how I came across the "Emissary of Light" and "ET 101" and "The Path of Action" & "Running from safety" and other books). Anyway, it aint there but my attention is drawn to "Conversations with God" which i had heard good things about from various people. I did my usual trick of opening it at random and saw something about "Well, if God can't inspire you, who the hell can!" So I just had to buy it.
Yet another book I can see myself frequently opening at random. (Should lend it to Di for Christmas - that is if she doesn't want "Three Christs of Ypsilanti" or Chopra or Jack Schwarz or ET 101 - it has been an interesting 6 months or so!)
I mean HOW many books do I have to read to "confirm" what I already know! After those experiences in Acacia ward in Feb, I truly thought NO doubt could ever seriously grip me again. I was wrong but I have to keep reminding myself that these are VERY early days. 8 months is a blink of an eye in real terms. As with ANY piece of inspired writing it can catapult you out of your ordianry consciousness. At times, I could read "Mary had a little lamb" and be in tune with a higher dimension of reality. At othe times, if God himself was standing in front of me it would make no impact on me. Makes life interesting if nothing else.
Yet I do wonder how many of these books I can read and still feel disconnected and doubtful at times. Well, I was an extreme atheist just eight months ago so I have already come a long way. Page 140 really grabbed my eye - "Be sure you and your partner agree on purpose. If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportunity, not an obligation - an opportunity for growth, for full Self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you, and for ultimate reunion with God through the communion of your two souls - if you take THAT vow instead of the vows you have been taking - the relationship has begun on a very good note. That's a very good beginning."
Wow!
Sadly, there aint a whole lotta people in this cynical, weary society whose approach is anywhere NEAR that! I know I have never heard anyone pt it in quite those terms! including myself who always had a very idealistic view of the way things "should" be or could be.
Other sections to catch my eye -
* If you don't see yourself as worhty of ebing spoken to directly by God, is it any wonder you don't hear
his voice.
* You can see through any illusion and see true reality - what page was that on? You actually actively
CREATE the illusion. (Doesnt' seem that way for most people!)
(I'll be interested in seeing what this book has o say abt reincarnation & "evil" & suffering & free will.)
Just found Conversations with God
website.
Dashed off a few emails - Bob Doyle, Yolanda Wadsworth, Susan Rowland, Brianna Linehan
Had literally NOT time for any surfing or checking my email. As soon as I arrive at ERMHA, Kate has mail for me - 2 copies of "New Paradigm". It feels quite weird seeing MY name in print as the author of something. Part of me is really uncomfortable with all the fuss and "adulation" about what I write. By nature, I've always been painfully shy and often withdrawn. Yet another part of me DOES want to inspire people to view the world and "reality" in a different light if I can. Like those words from a Supertramp song, "If you could see the world through my eyes."
Sometimes I feel sure that all this is leading somewhere amazing. At other times, the old doubts resurface and I wonder if I am just deluding myself. I mean a lot of the stories and poems I have written since february have flowed so effortlessly that it isn't actually "me" who is writing them. That must sound awfully mystical to anyone who hasn't experienced such inspiration. I have always been fascinated with the idea of "channeling" even when I was a dead-set atheist! Because that is exactly what it feels like. The entity I call "Myself" is switched off and some higher being/entity/force takes over.
It has manifested in a variety of ways over the past 15 years or so. Many of these go so far beyond the boundaries we call "normality" that it is inevitable most people leap to the conclusion that it is madness. But what is madness really? Is it simply a higher state of consciousness which we can't understand with our three-dimensional rational thought processes. I used to be obsessed by this question. I even remember once writng that there is no essential difference between "nirvana" and "madness".
What is Dave doing to me! hands me a catalog with 900 books in it! Academic seconds on sale - website is at Clouston & Hall
One title is "Are You Getting Enlightened or Losing Your Mind" by
Dennis Gersten. Is he trying to tell me somethin? :)
Another is Shadow Syndromes which addresses chronic sadness, outbursts of
anger, the inability to finish tasks and disabling discomfort in social situations
Hmmm ...
Also vaguely remember Dave saying "one of my works" from the Art group has been highlighted and photographed ... I only did one piece and I personally thought it was a bit average and didn't put a lot of thought or effort into it. Hmm ...
Dijana asked about frequencies and matter. I breifly explained einstein's theory of relativity that matter & energy are interchangeable. She hasn't studied much physics. I described the various stages of our knowledge about the fundamental building blocks of matter. We used to think atoms were indestructible - then we found they are composed of protons, neutrons, electrons, and then each of these is composed of quarks. The deeper you go the more it appears that matter is composed basically of "nothing" or light .. it boggles the mind.
She also said she is running low on material so I gave her some of the near death printouts - from the story by the atheist. Quite powerful as he described the shock and the realisation nothing was actually "private" at all! Yet at the same time comforting and inspiring.
Long day - not wise? now that I found out AGM is tonight & it's a humid day ... I suppose I should go to the AGM as my article is in the annual report. Though, like the consumer meetings, they aren't exactly my cup-of-tea. "Everyday is Christmas at my place." - recalled Bedford Falls from Red Dwarf. Nice to return after a week away. Reminded me that a lot of people are struggling with the same issues and what to do about them.
Also, reading New paradigm, I realised I could have gone a lot further with my "vision" of the future - well maybe next time. I doubt if many in the Mental Health field REALLYY want to hear that according to me all their training is highly unlikely to truly "cure" anyone. As I said on one recent tape, in "rehab" you won't see the success stories because anyone further along the path than me wouldn't be seen dead in rehab! They would realise that by holding onto a conventional approach you'll get nowhere in curing schizophrenia and the other major psychotic conditions. In rehab you'll see the lost and the confused and the subdued. That sounds harsh but it's true. Though I have now added a 4th category - the enlightened beings. They chose to be in the "system" and there were quite a few in Acacia that led me to write that poem. So maybe some curing does occur but it sure as hell aint coming from the psychiatrists and their zombie pills. Oops Geoff, be careful. Not many people are ready to see the truth. Oh who's going to read this anyway? I can't see too many psychiatrists at present actually bothering to listen to what a "psych client" has to say. Let alone to read that these "psychotics" could be at the vanguard of the next stage of human evolution! That is a bit far-fetched for most folks.
Then Di calls me out of the consumer meeting and says the Tibetan stuff aint on the video. That seems impossible if Tchiakovsky is on there and it immediately followed the Tibetan stuff on the same channel. Oh well, I suppose anything is possible.
Again a bit distant at AGM - but I've never been a huge fan of crowds and chit-chat and lost of noise. But Dave nailed it - I am a reluctant genius. Part of me wants to inspire people if I can but another part of me doesn't want the fuss or attention. A strange but not unprecedented combination of brilliance and social awkwardness. At this point in human history, a lot of do seem to have chosen rather strange paths ...
Besides ... "I don't really want to be a genius. I can only be seen as a genius if my thinking is revolutionary - until everyone else catches up with it."
That's enough thinking for one day ...
Anyway, the moderator says Bob Doyle at
and afterlife website ..."Afterlife Knowledge" - strange I haven't included that one in my links page yet?
It is Afterlife website
Need to fix this file up - new.html - if I ever get time to ....
Plus 16 or 20 pages of execise bk .... from last Friday Oct 29 which seems like a million
years ago - I was absolutely flying for a few days .... see
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