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It's Better This Way
By AngelB2113
Buffy stood in the doorway of the mansion watching him.He sat with his back to her.She knew he was waiting for her,he always did,every night.This night however would end diffrently.This would be the last night she would come to see him.Taking one last deep breath she walked into the mansion and through the makeshift door to the main room.
Angel heard her come in and stood up.He knew she would come he had been waiting for her."Hey,I was wondering when you were coming." He gave her slight smile,but she didn't return it.
"I'm not coming back." Buffy said looking at him with a small frown on her face.She had to do this,she had to push him away,it was just better for both of them this way."Were not friends...we never were. And I can Giles,and I can fool my friends but I can't fool myself.
Or Spike for some reason." She looked away momentarily thinking about what Spike had said.He had seen through there false "friends" cover right away.Buffy looked back at Angel."What I want from you I can never have.You don't need me to take care of you anymore...so I'm gonna go." There she had said what she had to.She knew what he would
say but she let him speak.
"I don't accept that." Angel said softly but firmly.He didn't want this.She couldn't push him away without a fight.
"You have to." And he would eventually.There was no other way.This was the way it had to be.
"Look.." he started to move towards her but she stepped backwards,away from him."Theres gotta be some way we can still see each other." Angel said to her,looking into her,hoping that there was.
"There is....tell me you don't love me?" Buffy wanted to hear him say those words so badly.If he did then they could be together.Yet she knew he never would say them.
Angel looked at his lover.He so wanted to her that he didn't love her.But he couldn't lie to her.He couldn't lie to his Buffy.So he simple said nothing.
Buffy looked at him sadly.Then she turned and walked through the makeshift door and out of the mansion.Once outside,the tears she had been holding back finally fell.She ran home leaving Angel alone.
Angel sat inside,alone and without his own Angel,without his Buffy. He had lost her and they both would never be the same again.
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The winter here is cold,and bitter.
Its chilled us to the bone.
We haven't seen the sun for weeks.
Too long to far from home.
I feel just like I'm sinking,
and I claw for solid ground.
I'm pulled down by the undertoe.
I never thought I could feel so low.
Oh darkness I feel like,letting go.
If all of the strength and all of the courage,
come and lift me from this place.
I know I can love you much better than this.
Full of Grace,Full of Grace,my love.
Its better this way,I said.
Having seen this place before.
Where everything we say and do,
hurts us all the more.
Its just that we stay,too long,
In the same old sickly skin.
I'm pulled down by the undertoe.
I never thought I could feel so low.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.
If all of the strength and all of the courage,
come and lift me from this place.
I know I can love you much better than this.
Full of Grace.
I know I can love you much better than this.
Its better this way.
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