blues Submission
What on earth is blue talking about? Submission? Hmmmm....let's see if she can explain. blue is submissive. she lives to serve, and when she consummates a D/s relationship, serves to live. But what does all that mean? blue finds in her heart that she is not happy in day to day life without structure. she needs discipline and focus. Does that mean that blue is weak and spineless? On the contrary, blue is neither of those things. She is strong and capable. She can move mountains if necessary and would do so for her Master if it were to please Him. She is smart and creative, goal-oriented and growing wiser everyday. It has taken blue nearly her whole life to discover who and what she is. For years she would have argued that no way, no how was/could she be submissive. blue is crafty and passive-aggressive. And yes, sometimes she is a bit of a witch. She was never truly happy until she embraced her submissive nature rather than shunning it. In blues mind and heart pleasure is found in pleasing her Master. That is where she finds her ultimate happiness.
She feels safe within the confines of a controlled relationship where she knows what is expected from her, leaving no room for error. Does that mean that blue needs someone to hold her hand 24/7? No. blue knows right from wrong and she is not crazy (though some may find that statement debatable). Does that mean that she is a doormat? No. she simply feels free to be who she is within the confines of a controlled relationship with someone who can make her feel safe when she is feeling tiny and insignificant. She needs and clings to someone who can teach and treat her as she needs to be without taking advantage of her submissive nature. It is an unfortunate fact of life that many people take advantage of those who only seek to please and serve others. It is a true Master who can accept the gift of submission without abusing it. blue needs that acceptance to grow, to spread her wings and eventually soar within the bonds of submission. Her body may or may not be bound, but it is her heart and soul that are tethered to her Master. Submission cannot be forced. It is given willingly to One who has earned trust and respect. To One who can teach and also acknowledge His submissive's growth. One who encourages and coaxes her to become all that she can be. (Feel free to interchange he and she at will, as blue is well aware that gender is not a deciding factor in D/s.)
Punishment and discipline are both things that blue needs in her life to create order and structure. blue hates guessing what is and is not appropriate and not only appreciates, but thrives on having someone teach her proper protocol for all occasions. Does that mean that blue is clueless on her own? In some cases yes, but as stated earlier she knows right from wrong. And at all times is in practice of self-preservation. In times when she has no One to keep her safe she will protect herself and will do a sufficient job in doing so.
blue is a bit of a masochist, though she shies away from the term painslut. D/s does not necessarily need to include S&M, however some find that the endorphins created through pain or fear make any experience, erotic included, that much more intense. On an e-mail group that blue belongs to someone defined both painslut and masochist. A painslut feels pain as pleasure, while a masochist feels and needs pain. blue could not agree more.
A few things that blue likes others may not be comfortable with or might not be able to endure, just as she may not be able to tolerate certain things that others may enjoy. blue has much to learn and looks forward to all that her Master has in store for her.
Below is the fetish consent form that blue went through and answered at the beginning of her journey. She has grown and changed and things that she perhaps thought "no way/no how" about seem much more acceptable. Take a peek at the checklist and see what you find appealing or appalling. blue, by the way, has a foot-phobia and would rather eat glass than do any kind of foot worship. Hee! To each their own.
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MAYBE
FETISH ACTIVITIES I AGREE TO:
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Oral sex
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Anal sex and/or rimming
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Light bondage using scarves, light rope, etc.
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Heavy bondage using handcuffs, shackles or similar devices
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Blindfolds
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Toys such as vibrators, dildos, or eggs
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Toys such as anal beads or Ben Wa balls
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Spanking
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Whipping
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Cock and ball torture, clamps, etc.
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Nipple torture, clamps etc.
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Collar/leash
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Role playing
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Cross dressing
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Taking photographs for private use
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Filming for private use
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Voyeurism
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Fisting
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Pussy and/or cock worship
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Knife play
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Fire play
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Needle play
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Branding
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Sensory Deprivation
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Water sports/urine
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Scat
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Food play
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Hot candle wax
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Depilation/shaving
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High heels/boots
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The rack/medieval devices
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Discipline
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Exhibitionism/sex in public
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Humiliation
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Infantilism/diapers
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Confinement
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Defilement, seeing a partner dirty or wet
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Leather, fur or other texture stimulation
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Enemas
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Sex during menstruation
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Talking dirty
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Biting
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Feet worship
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Pinching
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Massage
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Tickling
I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me
~Sinead O'Connor
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