Fear crowding me from all sides. Better fix it before it breaks. Stuck in a rut, afraid to get out. Muddy walls are so safe. I always know exactly where I'm going; exactly where I'll be. Certainty of future is my oxygen. Uncertainty of futurre post-change is what keeps me here. Lonely no matter what I do. No peace. Relationships could very well be complete shit. Only a dream sequence. A fairy tale until you reach it. Then the same for a while. But is it real? Is it real? Is it in my head? Is it in my head? Is it in my head? Is it in my head? Can't ask enough questions to find any answers. Once you've been there, all you breathe is the air inside it. Spend all my energy trying to get back in. Jumping into pictures like it. Only to break someone or a little piece of myself. Stuck in a crack in a heart. Leaving my mark. Scarring an therwise perfect happiness. Peaks and valleys. Peaks and valleys. Peaks and valleys. Peaks and valleys. Stuck on both. Never in between. Can always see one from the other. Looking ot the kodaks in my mind. Smelling the skin. Touching the hair that hides my security. BUT I CAN'T TOUCH IT ANYMORE! No matter how hard I try, I can't get back there. May very well die trying. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO WONDERFUL? Why does it have to be so hard to live without? Why is it so damn difficult to realize what it is when you're there? And will I ever find happiness? Can't ask enough questions to find any answers. Can't ask enough questions to find any answers. Can't ask enough questions to find any answers. Alone scares me. Together scares me. IT has to be perfect, right? It has to be without flaw. If not then is it wrong? IS it fucked up? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away? Should I run away?
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