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Copyright (C) 1994 by Jeff McRae, all rights reserved.
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History of FAQ:
v1.0 March '94 - The original, only took a few hours to write.
v1.1 April '94 - Added some small bits of info and Incesticide info
v2.0 April '94 - Added Kurt's death and a few others...
v3.0 June '94 - A few minor changes.
v3.1 July '94 - Added Kurt vs Axl and Vanity Fair stuff
v3.2 Aug '94 - Removed suicide note, added demo list
v3.3 Nov '94 - Added a few minor things
v4.0 Jan '95 - A few major changes, including full text of suicide
note
v4.1 March '96 - Added a few song titles
Without these people, the world would suck:
I. The Band
a.1 How it all began -
a.2 Who they were, and where are they now -
Band Name Who was in it/what did he play Where now?
Brown Cow Buzz Osborne - Bass Guitar The Melvins
Stiff Woodies Krist - Vocals
The Sellouts Steve Newman - Bass Guitar (lost fingers in
??????? Kurt - Guitar/Vocals
Skid Row Aaron Burckhard - Drums
Nirvana Aaron Burckhard - Drums Band - Attica
a.3 Current Sketch -
b - The sum-it-all-up time line -
II. The Songs
DISCLAIMER: These interpretations are taken from interviews with the
a.1 Bleach
Album produced by Jack Endino, Drums are Chad Channing except where
otherwise
Blew (2:53)
Floyd the Barber (2:15)
About A Girl (2:46)
School (2:40)
Love Buzz (3:33)
Paper Cuts (4:04)
Negative Creep (2:52)
Scoff (4:07)
Swap Meet (3:00)
Mr. Moustache (3:21)
Sifting (5:21)
Big Cheese (3:40)
Downer (1:42)
a.2 Nevermind -
Smells Like Teen Spirit (5:01)
In Bloom (4:14)
Come As You Are (3:38)
Breed (3:03)
Lithium (4:15)
Polly (2:54)
Territorial Pissings (2:22)
Drain You (3:44)
Lounge Act (2:36)
Stay Away (3:31)
On A Plain (3:14)
Something in the way (3:51)
Endless, Nameless (6:45)
a.3 Incesticide -
Dive (3:53)
Sliver (2:12)
Stain (2:37)
Been A Son (1:53)
Turnaround (2:17)
Molly's Lips (1:51)
Son of a Gun (2:47)
New Wave Polly (1:46)
Beeswax (2:47)
Downer (1:47)
Mexican Seafood (1:52)
Hairspray Queen (4:12)
Aero Zeppelin (4:39)
Big Long Now (5:01)
Aneurysm (4:36)
a.4 In Utero -
Serve the Servants (3:54)
Scentless Apprentice (3:47)
Heart Shaped Box (4:39)
Rape me (2:49)
Frances Farmer... (4:07)
Dumb (2:20)
Very Ape (1:55)
Milk it (3:52)
Pennyroyal Tea (3:36)
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter (4:49)
tourette's (1:33)
All Apologies (3:50)
Gallons of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through the Strip (7:33) (Import version)
III. Trivia
There have been 2 other bands called Nirvana, one was a group from the
early
Frances was not named after Francis Farmer, but after a member of the
Frances's middle name comes from the shape she appeared in a sonogram
(bean).
Stay Away was originally called 'Pay To Play' and was recorded at t hat.
A last
In Utero went through 2 name changes. It was originally to be called
'I hate
The pictures in the Incesticide liner are (from l to r):
CD Club Nirvana numbers:
Nevermind 442-046 15600
The morning of the New Music Seminar 7/23/93, Kurt od'd on heroin,
The rights for 'Never Fade Away: The Kurt Cobain Story' were sold
Where did the title for Smells Like Teen Spirit come from? the deodorant?
What about Rape Me?
Is it Kurt, Kurdt, Curt...etc...?
What's the deal between Kurt and Axl?
This is from 'The Advocate' Feb 03 1993. Kurt was asked 2 questions
about
A: I can't think of a damn thing. I can't even waste my time on that
band,
Q: Didn't Axl Rose say something nasty to you at the MTV Video Music
A: They actually tried to beat us up. Courtney and I were with the baby
Kurt told this story to the crowd at the Portland OR 9/10/92 concert,
try
What went on with the Vanity Fair article?
Q: What about the drug use?
A: Courtney was honest about the heroin excursion we went on for a few
The results of thie article were that there was an investigation into
How do I get bootlegs?
NIRVANA rare live recordings direct from
Title year reference
USA, Japan and Australia Prices
Europe prices,
You can pay with an International money order or with the following
If you pay with AMEX they always need to charge the credit card your
Send your order, giving the references and quantity of the discs to
(DISCLAIMER: I have no affiliation with KTS records and gain nothing
What are the hidden songs?
Gallons of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip appears on import
Verse Chorus Verse appears on the end of the No Alternative compilation.
IV. Internet Nirvana Resources
Ftp: ftp.uwp.edu pub/music/artists/n/nirvana
WWW: http://www.ludd.luth.se/~burrito
http://seds.lpl.arizona.edu/~smiley/nirvana/home.html
http://www2.ecst.csuchico.edu/~jedi/nirvana/html
Discography: Kept by alee@quads.uchicago.edu.
FAQ: Kept by me (jmcrae@oswego.oswego.edu) posted bimonthly to
Tour Date list: being compiled by Kurt Vogel (kwv@leland.stanford.edu)
Mailing list: Run by Rick Scaia (ag725@freenet.carleton.ca)
Bootleg Guide & Bootleg Guide Mailing List: Kept by greg@america.net
V. The Song List
The Almost Complete Nirvana song list
About a Girl
VI. Demo List
The Nirvana demo list
Fecal Matter demo
April '87 Evergreen College
Reciprocal Studio Demo w/ Dale Crover
Four Song demo of "wierd, quirky songs"
Love Buzz single session
Bleach Recording Sessions
Blew EP session
August 1989 Leadbelly covers session w/ Mark Lanegan
John Peel BBC Radio 1 session
January 11, 1990 Recording with Danny Peters
Laundry Room Recording for Communion Label 1990
Smart Sessions April '90
Kurt's Acoustic appearance on KAOS
John Peel session October 1990
Music Source Session
Nevermind recording sessions
Fall 1991 Peel Session
Mark Goodier Radio 1 session
Holland Radio Session
Laundry Room session 1992
Laundry Room session 11/92
Albini Sessions for In Utero
Laundry Room session Summer 1993
Seattle Session early '94
VII. Stuff that really doesn't fit elsewhere.
Krist Novoselic's internet posts -
Here it is:
>From [email address deleted] Wed Nov 9 18:12:43 EST 1994
Thank you all for th e messages. I cannot answer n any of them. I am
sorry.
The murder theory:
This is a 'statement' made by Courtney Love's PI regarding Kurt's death:
Titled - "The Killing of Kurt Cobain"
Solving a mystery isn't always an investigator's most difficult job,
In the interest of saving space, I am not going to rehash those events
Attempts may be made to discredit me or worked out to distract from
Those working near me during these past eight months are aware of how
Sure, Kurt talked about his thoughts of suicide in years past. Yes,
it
Regarless of what the coroner's report might say, Kurt Cobain died
Contrary to the police reports, the note found at the scene was not
a
In the near future, I am going to be furnishing the press with
It has been a long and tedious investigation. It has also been a
Keep your eyes, ears and minds open. This is not going to float around
Was Kurt Cobain suicidal? Maybe, but many who were close to him, who
Mini book reviews:
Come As You Are: The Story of Nirvana - by Michael Azerrad
Route 666: On the Road to Nirvana - by Gina Arnold
Never Fade Away: The Kurt Cobain Story - by Dave Thompson
Cobain - The Editors of Rolling Stone
Kurt Cobain's complete suicide note:
DISCLAIMER: This is the note as it appeared in NME. The original
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since
my first
For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic
roar of
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the
people
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter
who
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven,
I've
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your
letters
Peace, Love, Empathy.
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
note on the note: In the book 'Cobain' they mention that Boddah was
Rick Scaia (for the mailing list), Art Lee (for the discography), Alex
Lum
(for giving me comments way back when), Liz Ellison (a great source
of
wisdom), Michael Azerrad (who writes all the pretty books)
Everyone who supported alt.music.nirvana, and everyone else who I
might have missed
Extra Special thanks go out to: Kurt Cobain, Krist Novoselic, and Dave
Grohl
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The core of Nirvana formed when Kurt Cobain met Krist (then Chris)
Novoselic throught the punk band 'The Melvins'. Since then, they have
gone through many different drummers and different names.
========= ============================== ==========
Fecal Matter Kurt Cobain - Guitar/Vocals
Dale Crover - Bass Guitar
Greg Hokanson - Drums
Mike Dillard - Drums
Dale Crover - Drums The Melvins
Kurt Cobain - Guitar/Vocals
Various Guitar and Bass
Kurt - Drums
chainsaw accident)
Kurt Cobain - Drums
Krist - Guitar/Vocals
Krist - Bass Guitar
Bob McFadden - Drums
Kurt - Guitar
Krist - Bass Guitar
Ted Ed Fred }
Bliss }
Throat Oyster }Same as Skid Row
Pen Cap Chew }
Windowpane }
Dave Foster - Drums ???
Chad Channing - Drums Band - The Fire Ants
Jason Everman - Guitar Band - Mindfunk
Danny Peters - Drums Band - Mudhoney
Dave Grohl - Drums
John Duncan - Guitar Band - The Exploited
Pat Smear - Guitar
As of right now, there is no more Nirvana, Kurt Cobain committed suicide
on or around 4/5/94.
band and other articles. They are not my opinion of what the songs
mean.
The songs aren't meant to be deeply analyzed. In an interview Kurt
once said that the songs are whatever you want them to mean.
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noted.
- The whole song conveys themes of entrapment
- A song about a small town that goes bad, the title is taken from
a character
on The Andy Griffith Show. Everyone turns out to be a mass-murderer.
The
song also shows Freudian castration fears.
Drums: Dale Crover
- A song written for Kurt's girlfriend Tracy, she threatened to kick
him out
if he didn't get a job.
- A song about the incestous Seattle Scene. The bands seem to resemble
high school cliques.
- A cover song from the swedish group Shocking Blue
- Part of the lyrics are based on a true story of a family
that Kurt was acquainted with, who locked their children in a room.
Other
lyrics have to deal with parents, and neglect.
Drums: Dale Crover
- the first person narrative from an antisocial person
- A song that's directed towards the people who didn't believe in
Kurt's musical aspirations
- A battle of the sexes put in the background of a Sunday swap meet
- Speaks out against the stereotypical male macho image
- seems to take on authority figures with it's mention of preachers
and teachers
- This song is written about Sub Pop man Jonathan Poneman and
the pressures he put on the band.
- Kurt's attempt at a political song.
Drums: Dale Crover
Produced by Butch Vig, Drums are Dave Grohl on all tracks.
- An attack on the apathy of our own generation
- An attack on people who listen to certain music for the wrong
reason. Imagine the macho, gun toting guy who sings alone to Nirvana,
but
has no clue what he's singing about. (This song fits my ex-roommate
to a T).
- A song full of contradictions on how we act versus how
we think society thinks we should act.
- Growing up and being trapped by middle class america.
- A first person narrative of a nervous breakdown, or an update of
the Marxist description of religion as 'Opiate of the masses'.
An ode to disconnection.
- Based on the actual kidnapping of a 14 year old girl and her torture.
- Multi-themed song that attacks macho men.
- A song about (plainly and simply) love. Highly medical theme.
- A song about having a certain vision and being smothered by a relationship.
- An attack on any conformist clique.
- Many small lines of poetry having multi themes.
- A song about Kurt's experiences living under a bridge when he was
kicked out of home.
-Previously called 'The Noise Jam'. An experimental song created when
one of the takes on Lithium went bad.
-
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums:
-A semi-biographical song about being deserted by your parents
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums: Dan Peters
-
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums: Chad Channing
-Song about a girl whose parents wanted a boy
From: BBC Sessions Drums: Dave Grohl
-Cover of a Devo song
From: Hormoaning Drums: Dave Grohl
-Cover of a Vaselines song
From: Hormoaning Drums: Dave Grohl
-Cover of a Vaselines song
From: Hormoaning Drums: Dave Grohl
-Faster recording of Nevermind's Polly
From: BBC Sessions Drums: Dave Grohl
-????
From: Kill Rock Stars compilation Drums: Chad Channing
-See 'Bleach'
From: Bleach Drums: Dale Crover
-Some people seem to believe t his is about a yeast infection
From: Teriyaki Asthma compilation Drums: Chad Channing
-????
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums: Chad Channing
-????
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums: Chad Channing
-????
Produced by: Jack Endino Drums: Chad Channing
-Possibly about shooting heroin
From: BBC Sessions Drums: Dave Grohl
Album produced by Steve Albini, all drums by Dave Grohl.
- An autobiographical song about the whole Nirvana experience, the
'witch
hunt' on Courtney Love, and a sarcastic response to the emphasis placed
on the divorce of Kurt's parents
- Based on the novel 'Perfume' by Patrick Suskind, about a perfume
maker who kills virgins for their scent.
-(You could write a book about this song) Themes of co-dependancy and
many other themes.
- In Kurt's words, the song is a sort of poetic justice. A guy rapes
a
girl. He ends up in jail and is raped there.
- A song about the story of Frances Farmer, who was declared insane
and lobotomized.
- Ignorance is bliss. There is a certain care-free happiness involved
in
being dumb. Drug related thems dominate the song.
- An Attack on the stereotypical macho man.
- A song about co-dependancy, it heavily carries the medical theme.
- A song about making a tough decision and the difficult choices around
it
and the guilt following it. Pennyroyal Tea is an abortive substance.
- According to Kurt this song is a throwaway. A bunch of random
poetry lines thrown together. The title is a reference to 'Smells Like
Teen Spirit' and it's slick, radio-friendly sound.
- This song has no meaning at all. Kurt just screamed alot.
based on tourette's syndrome, which causes one to shout out obscenities
at any time.
- Contrary to popular belief, this song is not about Francis and Courtney.
He wrote it for them, but none of the lyrics really apply.
-More or less, a poem to words. This is an improv-style song
sixties who had one minor hit, and the other is a Christian band from
the early
Vaselines. Kurt says he'd wished he'd thought of naming her after
Farmer.
A picture of the sonogram appears on the cover of the Lithium single
on
the left side.
minute change of taste caused the change.
Breed was originally called 'Immodium' based on the medicine that the
lead singer of Tad used on one of their European tours.
myself and want to die' and then later 'Verse-Chorus-Verse'. Both of
these
are songs from the In Utero sessions.
Kurt, Krist, Dave, Dale Crover, Chad Channing, Dan Peters
Columbia BMG
-------- ---
Incesticide 453-340 00629
In Utero 467-159 90124
Courtney injected him with an illegal drug used to wake people
who've od'd on heroin. He went onstage and performed. No one knew
the difference.
to Paradigm Talent, who plan to make a movie. Cobain's family prevented
Azerrad from selling the rights to his stunning AUTHORIZED biography
'Come As You Are: The Story Of Nirvana'.
One day Kurt and a friend were having a discussion about teenage revolution,
they later got drunk and his friend wrote on the wall 'Kurt smells
like
teen spirit', Kurt was inspired, he thought she meant he would be
the type of person who could incite a teen rebellion. He went and wrote
the
song. She thought that he just smelled like the deodorant. Kurt hadn't
heard
of the deodorant at the time, he claims to have rarely used it himself.
Kurt always insisted that it wasn't aimed at the media, but one line
of the song is directed toward the Vanity Fair article and it's author,
Lynn Hirschberg. 'My favorite inside source', Lynn claimed to have
gotten
the info that Courtney did heroin the whole time of her pregnance from
'an inside source'. The song itself is a song of justice (as Kurt put
it),
A guy rapes a girl, goes to prison, and is raped there.
It is spelled Kurt, the odd spelling Kurdt came from when they recorded
'Mexican Seafood' for the Teriyaki Asthma compilation. When it came
time
to make the album, they realized that they didn't know Kurt's name
so they got ahold of someone who 'thought they knew' and it went from
there.
Incidentally, the people at Caroline records (who put out the Teriyaki
Asthma compilation) received no money for the appearance of 'Mexican
Seafood'
on Incesticide because they didn't bother with a contract cuz they
didn't
didn't make contracts for any bands.
Axl had asked Kurt to join them on their huge tour. Kurt declined.
Later Axl asked Kurt to play at his 30th birthday party. Kurt declined.
Guns and Roses.
Q: Is there anything about Guns N' Roses' music you like?
because they're so obviously pathetic and untalented. I used to think
that
everything in the mainstrteam pop world was crap, but now that some
underground bands have been signed with majors, I take Guns N' Roses
as
more of an offense. I have to look into it more: They're really
talentless people, and they write crap music, and they're the most
popular
rock band on the earth right now. I can't believe it.
Awards in September?
in the eating area backstage, and Axl walked by. So Courtney yelled,
"Axl! Axl, come over here!" We just wanted to say hi to him--we think
he's a joke, but we just wanted to say something to him. So I said,
"Will you be the godfather of our child?" I don't know what had
happened before that to piss him off, but he took his aggressions
out on us and began screaming bloody murder.
These were his words: "You shut your bitch up, or I'm taking you down
to the pavement." [laughs] Everyone around us just burst out into tears
of
laughter. She wasn't even saying anything mean, you know? So I turned
to
Courtney and said, "Shut up, bitch!" And everyone laughed and he left.
So I guess I did what he wanted me to do--be a man. [laughs]
to get it if you can.
Vaity Fair wrote an article about Courtney and her drug use. They twisted
the facts and got the Cobains into a lot of trouble. Kurt was asked
Kurt: I've never read an article that was more convincing yet more
ridiculous in my life. Everybody from our record label to our management
to our closest friends believed that shit.
She [Hirschberg] did a really good job of taking a piece of what
Courtney had said and turning it into something completely different.
I've seen that happen before--it's happened with me alot of times--but
this
was such an extreme and done so well that I have to give her credit.
She's a master at being catty.
months. Then Courtney found herself pregnant, realized she was pregnant
and had a drug problem, and got off drugs. It's as simple as that.
But it made it look like eight months after the fact, Courtney was
still
nine months pregnant and still doing drugs and everyone was really
concerned. Like there was some awful den of iniquity going on in our
apartment. I looked really skinny. Well, I am a skinny person, and
I gain ten pounds every time I'm photographed, so peopel assume I'm
this
chunky, normal weight person.
I'm just so tired of talking about this. We have to live with the
resuslts of this one article every fucking day. It's something we have
to
deal with all the time.
the Cobains that resulted in Francis being taken away for some time
(Courtney's sister took care of her). They finally got custody back
after being able to prove they were good parents.
A common way for people to start is to buy a bootleg and then trade
with
it on the internet, or find someone on the internet who is willing
to
sell copies. Here is a small 'advertisement' that was mailed to me
from
someone (who wishes to remain anonymous) about KTS records.
the CD Music Company in Italy,
(Kiss The Stone)
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Blind Pig 1990 CM 001
Seventh Heaven 1991 KTS 041
Dumb 1992 KTS 133
All Accoustically 1993 KTS 253
ROMA 1994 KTS 284
The Eternal Legacy 1994 KTS 336
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The price is 22.00 US $ for each disc,
Postage is as follows,
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The price is 25000 Lire/12 pounds/30 DM
Postage is as follows,
Europeans may pay in Lire with a Eurocheque
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cards, Visa, Eurocard, Mastercard, American Express, Diners - give
the
name, the card number and the expiry date. You cannot pay with a
personal cheque and don't send cash.
billing address. Orders above 8 cd's must be paid with an
International Money Order If you order more than 10 cd's you can have
one free. Any complaints will be accepted after one month from the
shipping date.
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CD Music Company SRL,
Via Canaletto 18,
ITALY
if you buy from them. I'm just relaying information.)
Endless, Nameless appears on some pressings of Nevermind.
The song begins 10 minutes after Something in the Way ends.
It wasn't included on the first printing (50,000).
versions of In Utero. It is 20 minutes after All Apologies.
Contains: lyrics, guitar tab, pictures (.gif), discography
Contains: more lyrics, discography, other fun stuff, a
large Picture gallery (.gif,.jpg).
Contains: Lyrics, Concert Chronology, Bootleg Guide,
and some other info. Also contains Hole stuff.
Contains: Lyrics, FAQ, Pictures (soon)
alt.music.nirvana
mail him the parts of your bootleg lists with the
show dates on them.
List address is aj781@freenet.hsc.colorado.edu
Names in parenthesis indicate bootleg names of the songs.
Cover songs are listed with the true authors in brackets
An asterix immediately after the title indicates true
title is not known.
Aero Zeppelin
Alcohol (High On the Hog)
All Apologies (Mary)
Aneurysm
Beans
Been A Son
Beeswax
Big Cheese
Big Long Now
Blandest
Blew
Born In A Junkyard *
Breed (Immodium)
Come As You Are
Crisco
Curmudgeon
D - 7 {The Wipers}
Dive
Downer
Do You Love Me? {Kiss}
Drain You
Dumb
Endless Nameless
Even In His Youth
Floyd The Barber
Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle
Gallons of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip
Hairspray Queen
Heart-Shaped Box
Help me I'm hungry *
Here She Comes Now {Velvet Underground}
I Hate Myself And Want To Die
If You Must (Happy Hour)
In Bloom
In His Room (In His Hands)*
Jesus Didn't Want Me For A Sunbeam {The Vaselines}
Lake Of Fire {The Meat Puppets}
Lithium
Lounge Act
Love Buzz {Shocking Blue}
Man Who Sold The World {David Bowie}
Marigold
Mexican Seafood
Milk It
Molly's Lips {The Vaselines}
Money Will Roll Right In {Mudhoney}
Mr. Moustache
Mv (Moist Vagina)
Negative Creep
Oh Me {The Meat Puppets}
Oh, The Guilt (It takes a time)
On A Plain
On The Mountain *
Opinion
Paper Cuts
Pay To Play
Pen Cap Chew
Pennyroyal Tea (Tired, Household Drugs)
Plateau {The Meat Puppets}
Polly
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
Rape Me (Wreck Me)
Raunchola
Return Of The Rat {The Wipers}
Run, Rabbit Run
Scentless Apprentice
School
Scoff
Serve The Servants
Sifting
Sliver
Smells Like Teen Spirit
Spank Thru (Make it Big, Freedom of Choise)
Spectre (Misery Loves Company)*
Something In The Way
Son of a Gun {The Vaselines}
Stain
Stay Away
Swap Meet
Talk To Me *
Territorial Pissings
Token Eastern Song
Tourette's (The Eagle has Landed)
Turnaround {Devo}
Where Did You Sleep Last Night {Leadbelly}
Verse-Chorus-Verse (Another Rule, Everything and Nothing, Sappy)
Very Ape
This is a list of known studio sessions, or studio-style sessions
Thanks to Sean Rohde on this one (srohde@sun1.iusb.indiana.edu)
plus 3 others
The Sk id Row demo
KAOS Radio show
Hairspray Queen / plus 3 others
Endino Produced Jan 23 1988
Spank Thru / Beeswax / Mexican Seafood / Hairspray Queen / Aero Zeppelin
/
Big Long Now(?)
(Sub Pop has this demo somewhere)
June 11, 1988
Love Buzz / Big Cheese / Spank Thru / Blandest +2 others(?)
December 24 & 29 1988
Blew / About A Girl / School / Negative Creep / Scoff / Swap Meet /
Mr. Moustache / Sifting / Floyd The Barber(not used) / Paper Cuts (not
used)
Late Summer '89
Even In His Youth / Token Eastern Song / Polly / Been A Son / Stain
Where Did You Sleep Last Night (Kurt: guitar) / Ain't it a shame (Kurt:
vocals)
October 1989
Love Buzz / Polly / About A Girl / Spank Thru
Sliver
Here She Comes Now
Polly / Immodium (Breed) / Pay To Play / In Bloom / Dive / Broken Mirrors
(Lithium) / Sappy
Opinion / ????? (don't know if others were played)
Turnaround / Son Of A Gun / Molly's Lips
Jan 1, 1991
Aneurysm / Even In His Youth
May - June 1991
Dumb / In Bloom / Territorial Pissings / Something In The Way / Stay
Away /
Smells Like Teen Spirit / On A Plain / Endless Nameless / Lithium /
Drain You / Come As You Are / Lounge Act
Dumb / Drain You / Endless Nameless
Nov 13 1991
Been A Son / New Wave Polly / Aneurysm / Something In The Way
(acoustic) / Return of the Rat (?) / Crisco
Curmdugeon / Oh, The Guilt / Return Of The Rat (?)
Kurt put down the guitar part for Burroughs 'The priest they called
him'
March 1993
I Hate Myself And Want To Die / Moist Vagina / Marigold /
Gallons of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through the Strip / tourette's /
Serve The Servants / Rape Me / All Apologies / Milk It / Heart-Shaped
Box /
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter / Very Ape / Pennyroyal Tea / Frances Farmer
Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle / Scentless Apprentice / Dumb
V erse-Chorus-V erse (remake of Sappy)
On The Mountain (rumored) / The Man Who Sold The World (rumored)
+ others???
This is the second post, I didn't save the first one, but it had
to do with Steven Tyler of Aerosmith (if anyone has it, mail me):
I don't have the time or the energy and frankly, I can't dwell on Nirvana.
I can't spill my guts. It's too personal and again, I can't dwell on
it. I
guess I'm the little bass player who can't. Chugga, chugga, choo, choo.
Wow that was a rush. I'm embarassed! There is too much pain. I'm over
the
daily "grief waves" but still go through feelings of confusion, anger,
regrets,
missing him and alot of times a feeling of beautiful loving feelings
for my
friend. Fuck this is enough. Next time I'll upload so my software can
tell
me when i am repeating words too often. It's late and I'm kinda tired.
Nothing matters anymore anyway. The christians are going to baptise
us
before we're marched up to the wall. I'm talking about the mid term
elections.
When the Christian coalition comes a knocken, both house's are gonna
have to
heed. If that's the case, God help us all! (sic) True Christains want
to
emulate Jesus. You know, to be right on and not judge, be forgiving
bring
wine to weddings and have long hair and a beard.
The suede denim secret police are gonna get me for that one, fer sure.
Wow,
by the way I've been rambling, you'd think that I was Courtney or some
thing.
I could never match that prose though, shre(Whoops) she should get
her degree.
So many people are gonna read this because Krist Novoselic wrote it
but let
me tell you this, I am a man of the proletariat! This is quite a boast
comming
from my tax bracket. Remember, socialism is an ethic not an ideology!
I write
this under the gase of an actual portrait, not a print, of Lenin. I
scored
this at the Pike Place Market and it came from some soviet beu bureau
in
Vladivostok. Newt Gingrich has his St Paul I have no one. You don't
think
that I'm some le bolshevik. Who needs Lenin when you have Mao? I'm
gonna
start a shining path sattelite up here in the northwest. I want a Satellite
with a 383 and a four speed pistol grip shifter. Super Bee. Coronet.
Charger.
The whole of this silly rant is that I really don't have much to say,
right
now. Sure if I were to be in the seat next to you on a plane and we
struck
up a conversation, we'd pass the time by discussing the topics of the
day or
what ever. I cannot answe5r Nirvana questions. The mail I got was sweet
and
I apreaciate it by hey, as the Flav says, "Can't do nothing for you
man!"
To be truthful, I'll read your messages but won't reply. Who am I any
way.
I'm the guy next in line at Safeway. I'm the person in the left lane
of traffic
who gets uptight when people won't get over. I was in an e imencly
popular
rock band. Did I spell immense right? What ever. I understand the power
of
music so i understand you all. Sometimes I can't understand jack asses
who
talk shit about dear old Kurt but as a true democrat,NO party affiliation,
I'll respect the fact that they have a right to thier opinion, no matter
how
shallow and misinformed it is. We need more respect in this world.
Remember that the music biz and the rock press have a symbiotic relationship.
Remember that Nirvana was about music, first and foremost.
Remeber Leon Trotsky. THe Fugs, "Dirty Old Man".
Remember not to e mail me. I will not answer.
You are all good. good bye and god blesss!
breaking down barriers of communication between a private investigator
and the police detectives can often be next to impossible. On Sunday,
Aril 3, 1994, I was hired by Courtney Love to try to locate her
husband, Kurt Cobain. Until now, I have refused to release any
information regarding my investigation with the exception of a few
minor details given to the Seattle Times for a story in the May 11,
1994 issue.
here except to say that since the discovery of Kurt's body on April
mistakes were made by the police and by myself. That's going to happen
in any complex case.
what I have to say. If that tactic is attempted by anyone directly
involved in this case, a word to the wise, I may take some nicks and
scrapes here and there but no matter how much money, power or influence
you think you have, you will be shooting bee-bees (sp?) at a canon.
careful I have been while discussing those theories about specific
details and events. I may have had strong beliefs about some of my
perceptions but, I always qualify those beliefs with "I can't say for
sure" or "I think" or "it seems" or "I'm pretty sure". So when I now
say I know Kurt Cobain was murdered and I say it can be proven, I want
you to realize the significance of those statements. I have walked
through a door that only swings in one direction. If I try to get out,
I'm stuck. There is no way out and you won't find me looking for one.
may have seemed to some that he might even do it one day. But many
in
the media perceive something not quite right here and few were in a
position to know exactly what it was. I have been in a position to
know, a very good position. Now I am going to share the answers to
many of your troubling questions. Here is what I am going to tell you
right now: Kurt Cobain wanted out. He wanted out of performing on
tour, he wanted out of his band, he wanted out of the business that
was
pressuring him to produce his music instead of simply playing. But
Kurt Cobain did not want out of life.
Sunday evening, April 3rd or early Monday morning, April 4th. Although
he may have been seen at the local park by the lake on Sunday, April
these "witnesses" have been deliberately planted in the media. At
least two people knew Kurt was dead before I was sent to Seattle to
search for him on Wednesday, April 6th.
suicide note. It was not written to Courtney and Frances. It was a
long, detailed letter written to Kurt's fans with a very short footnote
to Frances and Courtney. The letter explained his decision to quit
touring and stop performing with his band. Kurt was leaving Seattle
to
go East and stay with friends. He wanted to be left alone. He didn't
want anyone to follow including his wife. That is what this letter
is
all about. That is ALL this letter is about. The body of the letter
was written by Kurt with the exception of the following words added
at
the bottom, "Which will be so much happier without me. I love you,
I
love you". Those words were added by someone else without Kurt's
knowledge. I have more to say about this letter at another time.
additional details regarding the killing of Cobain. For the time
being, all information will be in the written form. I am not going
to
answer questions until after I have had a chance to deliver most of
my
story in proper sequence. Following are some of the topics I am going
to cover: the missing credit card, the surveillance in Seattle, my
search of the Cobain house, my meetings with the police, the police
reports, planted stories and media manipulation, sources inside and
out, getting to know Kurt, Cobain's killer identified, the proof and
what about Kristen Pfaff.
delicate balancing act, staying in a place where I could continue
gathering information while at the same time maintaining integrity
with
regard to one of my clients. More will be said about that also at
another time.
as just another speculative conspiracy theory. The case is going to
be
proven and those involved will be prosecuted.
really knew him, say not really. Would Kurt Cobain have committed
suicide sooner or later? Possibly, but many who knew him say not in
this way, not without more concern for his daughter, Frances. Did Kurt
Cobain commit suicide? NO. There was no suicide. This was no suicide.
This is a list of the books out there dealing with Nirvana that I've
read, and my opinion on them.
-A necessity. If you like Nirvana and don't have this book, go out
and
buy it. Referred to on alt.music.nirvana as "CAYA".
-I skimmed this book in the bookstore one day, and it only appeared
to
briefly mention the band. The main focus is on the music scene.
-This book reads like a tabloid newspaper does. Filled with
inaccuracies.
-This is a great collection of articles and interviews about Nirvana
from the archives of Rolling Stone. The pictures are great and so are
the articles.
note is in the hands of the Seattle Police Department. Two copies
were made, one given to the Medical Examiner, the second to
Courtney Love. It was Courtney's copy that showed up in NME.
It was a difficult decision for me to put this in here, but it is
one of the most frequently asked questions.
Thanks to Liz Ellison on this one!
rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be
pretty
easy to understand.
introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence
and the
embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't
felt the
excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading
and
writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these
things.
the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for
Freddy
Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from
the crowd,
which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't
fool you,
any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime
I can think
of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm
having
on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and
I do,
God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that
I and
we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of
those
narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive.
I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once
had as a
child.
I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get
over the
frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good
in all of
us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes
me feel
too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces,
Jesus man!
< BR>Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing
every
person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm.
And that
terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand
the
thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death
rocker
that I've become.
become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems
so easy
for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel
sorry
for people too much I guess.
and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody,
baby!
I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn
out
than to fade away.
Kurt Cobain
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
one of Kurt's imaginary friends as a child.
