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The Wishing Well
By: Lady Jaya
Started: 2/29/00
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Wishing Well
Wishing Well
The magic waters swirl
Far belong in the depth
Just out of reach
Something falls slowly to the water
A silver coin
Each wish has a price
Wishing Well
Wishing Well
My wish I wish,
Not a soul shall I tell,
Please little wishing well
Make my wish come true this day...
Wishing Well
Wishing Well
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I smiled as I stared into the clear blue waters of the wishing well just wishing a wish that had been on my mine unspoken for way too long.
I know it in my heart but I don’t know how to voice it. Now that’s not right... I know how to say it, I just can’t say it I have not the courage to say what I feel to you. I’m scared deeply and horribly afraid of this wish I am wishing and yet... Slowly I flip the small round coin between my fingers round and round wondering if I should drop it, should I actually finalize this dreadful and yet wonderful wish? Suddenly it slips falling as if in slow motion till at last it hits the clear blue water far below, with a plib and a plop that rings off the shaft falls back up to my hears high above. It was too late to re think it now, so I shut my eyes and whisper my wish...
"I wish...that.... that," I can’t say it! I can’t say the words my hear and my mind scream for me to just say to admit the facts. To admit the truth of this wish, that lies heavy on my heart...
"I wish, that.." ~oh god~ I run my hand through my still wet hair,"I wish that I knew how he felt? I wish that there was some possibility that...that he could love me." I sighed I had said it and said it out loud for once, now I could not longer denie the reality of it.
"I love you,"I whisper again in reverence,"I do!"
"Mind if I join you?" I jumped in shock at the sudden sound of his voice behind me. The voice I know all to well the voice that sends tingles down my spin, that sets my heart on fire, and makes me feel like a bash full child who never knows quite what to say.
"No,"my voice sounds squeaky and unsteady even to me, and I know he had to have heard it but he didn’t seem to. But he had to know just know he did. Trying to force myself to relax wishing for once that I could be as calm as Seiji is some times but I’m not. Instead all I can do is be glad that I don’t blush quite as easily as Shin either.
"Good,"in a daze I move over so that he can lean against the edge of the well next to me,"Did you make a wish?" He asks and I hear his voice cutting through my haze clouded world.
"Yes,"I say quietly, not trusting my voice to say anything louder nodding as if to add some emphasis to my words.
"Hhhmmm..."he shifted slightly closer, sending shiver down my spine and I fight to keep my eyes on the sparkling reflection of the light on the water far below. I know that if I look up now and see his clear sky blue eyes somehow brighter then the sun and moon, and yet darker then the darkness night.... If I see those eyes I do not know what will happen. His arm brushed against mine again and despight myself I shiver,"You cold?" I shook my head this time not even daring to say anything afraid of what would or might come out instead,"I don’t suppose you’d tell me what you wish for?"
Those soft words startled me almost more then the touch of his warm skin against my strangle cold and clammy feeling skin as I try not to clench my hands too tightly around one another.
"I can’t."
"I know,"his laugh is soft and quiet almost intimately so. I watch in shock as his voice falls in slow motion till it to disappears beneath the swirling, slowly expanding rings of water just as mine has only minutes or was it hours before....,"Perhaps I’ll tell you what I wished for if you tell me what you wished for."
"Maybe,"I bite my lower lip trying to ignore his overwhelmingly close presence next to me, but failing miserably.
"Hhhmmm..."he pushed away from the well with a little smile that plays across hi face. His eyes dance in the sun light that seems to liver there eternally,"Maybe I’ll tell you anyway,"he shrugged and turned away heading back towards the beach,"Someday~" I watch as he walks away again, a slight bounce in his step his dark hair waving and sparkling in the sun light as the cool crisp salty wind from the sea washes over him. Too shocked to say anything to call him back or else I slowly sink to the ground next to the well.
"Idiot,"I hiss angrily,"You had to go and act like a fuckin IDIOT!!! didn’t you!!" Slowly and ever so slowly I run my hand though my still damp hair the strange sensation of tears pricking in my eyes. Letting out the breath I’d been holding for how long I knew now. ~Oh God why that hell couldn’t I have thought of something.....ANYTHING to say or do~ but no ~Just stand there like a ...............IDIOT!!!!~ I put my head on my knees as I pull them up against my chest, my tears threaten to spill over but I WILL not let them fall.... I may not be Seiji but I do have some control, and I will not cry. And I did not. But it was a while before I could bring myself to move from where I sat though the whole time I could hear the others as they teased each other swimming in the waves... Someone had managed ~most likely Seiji~ to pull Touma’s book from his grasp and actually get him into the water for once. That was a surprise of sort and of course Shin would be there diving in and out of the waves having the time of his life as he chased Ryo and the others around pulling them down and then darting off before anyone could catch him. Thought they’d probably managed to get him with team work. It was then that I began to wish I was out there and I slowly pulled myself back to my feet and headed towards the beach with a sigh...
The rest of the day flew by though I could still not bring myself to look into you’re eyes even when you looked at me. But you said nothing of what had happened earlier and I was all too happy to let it slip. Even if I couldn’t stop thinking about his words, and I knew they would haunt me far into the night when I was too tried to sleep... And even then the after noon went by way too fast and still too soon it was time to go.
"COME ON SHIN,"calls Touma from where he’s perched on the front of the jeep his wet hair falling into his face as always. Seiji leans against the side of the jeep next to him a half smile on his face. I smile at the dejected look on shin’s face.
"Cheer up buddy,"I said with a laugh,"We’ll be back soon enough knowing you."
"I know, I know,"Shin mutters back shaking his wet red brown hair out of his eyes,"It’s just...."
"Don’t worry,"Ryo says coming up to walk between the two of us with a smile,"’Sides at least you don’t have to cook dinner for all of us today. I bet Nasuti has it all laid out already."
"That’s true,"Shin laughs.
"Well then,"Ryo agrees and I shudder as he slips an arm around my shoulder and the other around Shin’s,"I don’t know about you two but I’m Hungry!!"
"I’m sure Shu’s starving,"Shin said glancing over at me and I shrug.
"Not really."
"WOW!"I laugh at the infection in you’re voice,"Shu’s not hungry. YA HEAR THAT SEIJI, TOUMA SHU’S NOT HUNGRY!"
"Awe knock if off Ryo,"I muttered blushing as he smiles a me, tossing his wild black hair out of his eyes.
"I’m driving,"Seiji says, pushing away from the jeep and headed around the other side as Touma jumps down.
"Well I do know one thing,"Touma put in,"If Shu’s not hungry that leaves more for ME!"
"Agreed,"laughs Shin...
Dinner was a long and laborious affair that night in my mind. All I wanted to do was get away from the others to cool off and think of something else anything else. But I couldn’t just do that and then I had to deal with them all asking me if I was feeling all right the whole time just cause I didn’t really feel like eating. Why the HELL did they think that I always had to eat something, I mean that’s not all I do *G*.... Okay slowly I climbed the stairs and headed towards my room not even pausing to flick on the lights... Didn’t mater I knew where everything in the room was. It was the soft click as the door close that made me turn to see the eyes staring out of the darkness as me that made me jump.
"Nani?"
"Do you know what I wished for?" My heart lept into my throat as I realized that it was you standing there in the shadows next to the door. Despight the dark I can still see the little smile that plays across her face reaching into the deep swirling blue pools that make up your eyes.
"What?" The word comes out of my mouth before I even know what I’m saying. Before I realize what I have said as you step closer to me... My heart is beating soo loud now it’s a wonder you don’t hear it, as you step even closer. I can feel you’re warm breath on my cheek and I shudder, you pause you’re eyes catch mine. It’s too late.
"I wished for you." You blink and I blink back un able to find anything to say much less the words to say it with. You put a hand on my arm and I look down at you’re dark skin next to mine in shock...
"Ryo..." I whisper your name not knowing what else to say and you smile up at me.
"What did you wish for?" Your voice is soo soft and yet I can hear you’re worlds clearly, and slowly I run my tongue along the inside of my teeth...
"I...." My voice breaks and I stop... I open my mouth to say something more but no sound comes out as you slowly close the space between us slipping you’re arms around my neck.
"It’s alright,"you whisper, and all I can do is blink,"I know what you wished for." With that he pull my head down and seal my lips with your’s... I pull back and then slowly slip my arms around you, pulling you’re slip muscular body too mine not sure if this is real or just my imagination. But hell I don’t care any more as I kiss you back this time before we fall as if in slow motion to the bed...
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The end
3/5/00
Jaya
