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In 1998, I was injured by an abusive boyfriend. After that sorrowful relationship crumbled, I fell into a pattern of self destructive behavior. I was on a dark winding road to suicide, and then one day I met a kind man named Nathaniel. He helped me get back on my feet and we became great friends. We were inseparable. He rescued me from the grave without knowing it. Our friendship was perfect, and I savored every minute. Our separation, on the other hand, was tragic. Then a year or so later I heard from another old friend that Nathaniel had been killed. For a while I believed him, and I was very sad. He didn't know it, but he was the life force that once swept through me like water, and then he had been so horribly killed. Well, recently I saw a picture of him in the local newspaper in an advertisement for a local theatre production. I was more than elated to see him alive and well. I went to see the play in disguise, and severed my connections with the person who lied to me. All my loved ones, past and present, support my work. The Geisha House is like my own little online gallery, and my first successful website. 
I have been involved in many things in my art career, and I have not yet reached the age of 21. Here are just some examples:
Things don't get any easier for me with my job. Being an artist is not as easy as one might think. You don't make much money, it can be very emotionally frustrating and exhausting, and it takes a lot of hard work. I have not sold a painting or drawing in four years, I know how hard it is. But I would rather be painting than running a successful business. My ability to paint and draw does not lie within my decrepit mind, but it comes from somewhere else. It is totally beyond me. People ask me where I learned how to do what I do. I answer them honestly; I never learned, I always knew how to draw. As far back as I can remember, I was drawing on a much higher level than my peers. My writing skills are well known, but not nearly as sharp as my artistic capabilities. I have tried teaching small groups, but found that impossible. I simply could not explain or even demonstrate my techniques to my "students" no matter how hard I tried. It all comes so naturally to me, that I have no way to explain my methods. So now here I am, and with no way to explain myself. However I do it, I know I will continue to do so until the day I drop dead. 
Do you ever find your artwork to conflict with your religious beliefs? Not really. My artwork can get very violent or sexually explicit, however my Christian beliefs dictate that it is in fact necessary to shock people straight sometimes. The reason I do explicit work is not because I'm a pervert, but because I am trying to make a point. What is your most successful project to date? In Junior High I did a painting of lizards and frogs arranged in a pattern. That painting was entered into contests and toured into Washington D.C at a later time. If I had any pictures of it, I would post them here. How do most people react to your artwork? Most people are amazed and impressed, however I always get a few every now and then who are super offended by it for some reason. I've been booted out of contests before, so there are narrow small-minded people every turn I make. For every person who comes to me saying how much they love my work, there are three more pointing their steely little fingers at me. As if I have something to be ashamed of! How do most people react when they see you in person? They are afraid of me. They see the black lipstick and spiked collar and back away slowly. I may look evil, but I am the most nonviolent person you will probably ever meet. Society has a tendency to love the artwork and hate the artist who made it. You are a member of the Newgrounds.com Fan-Net. Have you done any work with FLASH Animations? No, I have not, and probably never will. FLASH has to be downloaded from the Macromedia website and paid for, and last I heard the price was somewhere around two hundred American dollars. I do not have this kind of money, or a credit card for that matter. But if anyone such as Will Stamper or Tom Fulp should ask for artwork, I would jump at the chance. What inspires you to do what you do? My God, my music, my lover, my bottle of wine... Why be an artist? It is what Heaven has commanded me to do, and who am I to deny it? That, and I would love to see the look on Nathaniel's face when he sees his portrait. But for the most part, I strongly feel it is my destiny. Do you love what you do? Oh yes indeed. 
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