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Artist's Statement
I am ill with fibromyalgia and degenerative arthritis. Fibromyalgia is presently an incurable chronic pain disorder of the central nervous system. The arthritis is particularly destructive in my spinal column. Arthritis has also had it way with the skeleton. The body screams out in pain. The pain is extreme and relentless in its insistance on making its appearance in my body every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day, year after year.
This is one reality.
In another reality I am the physical being through which softness, color, and rich light can pass on their way to a 3d image. I make some of the decisions. I open certain gates of passage. It is a world beyond the pain.
There are times when a disabled person feels that the physical world is contolling their every move.
In the world of x y z space, the world in which digital 3d art is created, I am free. I can move and turn, twist and bend, walk and run, and soar. In this world, I am not disabled. I am controlling the "world". The world is not controlling me.
I know, from my travels in cyberspace, that I am not alone in pain. I know that there are others looking for a soft world beyond the pain. Some of us have a particular determination, and ability to give a gift, that might just slow the pain.
So I have chosen to work at creating 3d worlds, worlds in which I can soar, worlds that I can share.
Sometimes when I close my eyes to look, I see the worlds appearing and when I open them again, the worlds can escape. It is the same for me with what is termed "disability". Sometimes disability is like closing your eyes to see. It is the barrier that forces you to be free.
Jack Andrews October 5, 1999
vrartist@earthlink.net
