I'm beginning to love Tim's boys. Okay so they're dirty, and bad, and well....they're boys. I mean real boys. It's kind of like a whole different world. It's kind of interesting to just look at the different "cultures" of 'teens. Because there's this huge range of genres. And even just male/female you see all these different types. It's actually very interesting. But anyway it's just kind of fun now, because I know everyone's name and they *should* be able to recognize me by now. And there's actually some cuties among them. I met this guy named O.J. tonight who was so cute! He totally looked like a me and holly guy.
He wasn't all drugged up with smokes and what not, and beer and 40's among other things. And he's smart. Going post-secondary. (rouh rouh!). But it's kind of funny cuz i've got this "high and mighty" thing, i mean not really. Just...I feel sort of preppy among all of them. But anyway they're all being "bad" and then Tim and O.J are talking and they're saying how their test scores were all "wack" and I'm shrinking away because they're all down on their scores..and they're all above what i got! And they still have chance for re-takes cuz they're just entering senior year and all. Wow, do i really suck that much? I suppose intelligence and intellect are different. Not to say I have intellect ;) Because I'm really not that much better.
sigh Sometimes I get really bummed on myself, because I can't figure out what's my whole deal. I mean we all want to be used for some purpose or be "cool" in some way. I can't figure out what is ME! Sometimes I feel so great and then other times I can't figure out why anyone would want to be my friend or anything. That sounds totally cheesy.
Okay, i'm tired. Goodnight.
"Turn the beat around, love to hear the passion."--Gloria Estefan.
