I can taste
lips
strong
wanting.
Sensations trickling down
nervously has his hands cautious
oscillating between the decision
to brush over my..
At the dating seminar at Bible study we asked "How far is too far?". No one would give us a straight answer. Basically people are conditional. What's too much for you isn't for him. Or is that really the truth? Basically anything that inspires lust, is when you should stop. Can you kiss without thinking...what's next?
But i don't have a libido. So do i count? How far is too far? How far is too far for a nice Christian boy, who's telling me to wait, but gettin' some feels in? i'm not a boy. I don't know what they go through. I guess when i'm 30 i'll have the hormones of a teenage boy, but until then...I don't want to be a prude, but right now I feel easy. And if you're going to do something take control. Do it with confidence, and give it your all. It's like cheerleading, if you're gonna mess it up, at least look good while you're messing up. So you should have been doing a low-V but you did a high one...at least it looked sharp and you were wearing a smile. If he's gonna make a move, then i'd rather he just do it.
Of course i could just help him do it.
I'm sure he's just being careful so he doesn't get slapped. Testing the waters. But how far is too far? I don't want his hands in my pants. I'm not sure if i want them up my shirt either. And what about me? I find him enjoyable but i'm lacking the "oh baby" lust.
I feel like a doll baby when he's kissing me. no. more like a rag doll. a cold fish? I know i'm not the most responsive. I was actually fantasizing about his brother earlier in the day. What's wrong with me?
I wonder what he's thinking.
yeah! got a score...
?? I have no idea. Hey, if i was a guy, i'd be please with myself. I just feel kind of dirty. Not really dirty, just i don't want him to think he can go too far. Which is ironic since he's telling me to wait. He's making out with me and trying to get me to go to church. Mixed signals in more than one way!
"Father forgive me. I do know what I've done. Father forgive me. I don't know who I've become."--The Normals, "Forgive"
