Well the play is all over. Finished last night, quite well i must say. I kept on wanting to write all week, because I was going through a lot. I cried the hardest I ever have in public during school. I guess things just got a little overwhelming. My wonderful guidance counselor (cough), just said it's going to get ten times worse in college. Thanks. Like when you want to be comforted it, that's what you really want to hear. Oh well, I'm much better now. Too bad I couldn't go back and recapp everything that was going on though.
At the beginning of the week all i could think was, "This play is going to fail.". I was so ashamed of it, I was telling no one about it. But as we finally got through some run throughs...and they weren't looking too bad, I feverishly raced out to the people telling everyone I could to make a show. I think I did a pretty good job selling some spots. I even got a dear friend to come who never goes to school function things. I guess everything is against his religion.
Speaking of religion...I wonder what religion he is. The cast of the play was kind of fun because almost everyone was Christians, so people were always talking about thier youth groups, God, and what not. It was kind of fun. I wonder what my director is. I know he gets crazy, because everyone has these church conflicts. Now that the play is over, I guess I can start going to Bible study again.
I can't wait til I finally finish the Bible. It's going to be such an accomplishment! Everytime I finish a chapter, I go to the back and see what I have left. I'm thinking maybe June or July I'll have it completed. whhooo, it's going to be so crazy, having read it all. Wonderful, though.
Ah, my last play. I'm so glad I finished my senior year playing the lead. It really rocked my world! A parent mentioned I had such a clear voice I should look into broadcasting. Hmmm, broadcasting. I am on the search for a new career. I'm gonna have to research what you can do with a "undecided" major at OSU. I want to take a variety of classes, if possible. There's so much I want to do. But I don't know. Major in it? Actually work? I wish I just had lots of money, and could do whatever all my life.
I feel really bad for this girl. She's another actress in the play, and she was going into theatre for college, but she didn't get accepted into any of the theatre departments in which she tried out for. It didn't help that after the play, all the parent types were saying how she should go into a career of acting. Well, I was trying to..... She's really good too, and pretty. I know it's a hard business to break into, but I would have thought that she could make it. It's kind of scary thinking about it. I'd still like to try it myself. I'm going to live in California for ten years I think. And everytime there's a tryout for a movie role, I'm going to be there! Oh, I think I need an agent. I need some connections.
I feel so terribly cheesy, asking people I know to look into acting for me. I mean it seems so un-serious. Ohhhh, acting? Yeah, right, like you'd make it! I'd love to do it. It's a blast. Okay, I got pre-cal and other wonderful homework items to do, so I'm off!!
Uh, oh...nothing about Tim in this one! ;)
"Spend all your time waiting..for that second chance, for the break that would make it okay. There's always some reason to feel not good enough, and it's hard at the end of the day."--Sarah McLachlan, "Angel".
