What Can I tell you about me? I guess I can start from the beginning. It all started since I was very young. I don't know why, but one day I just needed to try on some of my mom's makeup. One day, while my mom was outside working on her garden, I snuck in her bathroom and I started putting some lipstick on. After that, the eye shadow followed and some eye liner. I just loved to look at my self in the mirror and was amazed at good I looked. Later, I tried to pierce my ear. I knew that my mom would kill me if she knew. At first, I would take staples and bend them to look like hoops and put them on my ear. It looked so real, but I knew that it was not the real thing. A couple of years latter, guys started to wear earrings on there left ear. I suggested it to my mom and she said to me that if she ever found out that I had done some thing like that she would tear it off. That was all that I needed to hear. I guessed I was around 12 when I found that my mom was using my closet to store some dresses that were too small for her. One day I was sent to my room to clean it up. I looked my door and started to try on all the dresses. I looked just like a little girl. I wished I could wear some make up and some nice shoes with them. By now, I was old enough to stay home alone. My mom would go to friends houses to talk and things, and I would tell her that I didn't want to go. I would stay home a party. I would try on as many dresses as I could. I would walk all over the house in her shoes and put all the make up I wanted. One day I decided that I was going to pierce my ears. I didn't want my mom to know so I would get some pins that had the color ball at the head. I would stick it in my ear and wear them for a couple of hours. Every time I wanted to see my self with them on, I would have to pierce the ear all over again. When I took them off, I wouldn't even bleed. I would get a little mark on my lob, but it only looked like I had a pimple. Now I have 3 holes in each ear. Later on, I started to grow more and more body hair. I didn't want it, but there was nothing I could do about it. I started to shave my legs. One of my brothers noticed and every body started to make fun of me. I told them that I was doing it so that if I got cut in my mountain bike races, it wouldn't get to infected. They bought it and I was happy. For a while I was doing this and nobody noticed what I was doing. I was wearing all of my mom's cloth and shoes. I was so happy. I found that I could even wear her bathing suits. I would put them on, shave my legs and jump in my pool and play with out anyone knowing. I was in heaven. One day, my mother found some of the clothing that she had in my closet misplace. She started asking me all kinds of questions, but I was so embarrassed that I didn't say anything. (I think it was the worst thing I could have done) Next thing I know, they took me to see a phyciatris. I denied everything and stuck to my story the whole time. Now I wish I would have told them all. They probably would have done something about it and could be happy now. I know they had there suspicions, but the never found out. The only person that I have been able to tell is my wife. It was one of the hardest things I ever did. I took me a year after we were married to finally come out and tell her. She didn't suspect anything at all and was shocked. To this day, she is not too happy with it, but she loves me so much that she doesn't ever want to leave me. She wants to have a big family but I was able to convince her that two was enough. I am going to start taking some herbal hormones. It is going to take much longer to notice a change in my body, but that is fine. I am still young and it might be better to take it slow. My wife says that she will always be with me no matter how I look. I want to be with her too. I just want to have a lesbian relationship with her. I am not in any way attracted to men at all. I love women and I don't think that I would ever be attracted to men. Still, I plan to keep you informed. I will also keep you informed of any changes I notice with the hormones. I know that they will probably be very small but at least I can help people learn from my experience. I have not told anyone in my family and I don't think I will ever be able to tell them. That is why I wish I would have said something back then. I guess if there is anything to learn about me from this, you should take the opportunity when you can and not wait for another chance. That is all for now, but I add some more in the future. Feel free to look at the rest of the site.